Always
I hear… a voice say “Don’t be so blind”…
it’s telling me all these things…
that you would probably hide…
am I… your one and only desire…
am I the reason you breath…
or am I the reason you cry…
Always… always… always… always… always… always…
I just can’t live without you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t get around you…
I breathe you…
I taste you…
I can’t live without you…
I just can’t take anymore…
this life of solitude…
I guess that i’m out the door…
and now i’m done with you…
I feel… like you don’t want me around…
I guess i’ll pack all my things…
I guess i’ll see you around…
It’s all… been bottled up until now…
as I walk out your door…
all I can hear is the sound…
Always… always… always… always… always… always…
I just can’t live without you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t get around you…
I breathe you…
I taste you…
I can’t live without you…
I just can’t take anymore…
this life of solitude…
I guess that i’m out the door…
and now i’m done with you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t live without you…
I left my head around your heart…
Why would you tear my world apart…
Always… always… always… always…
I see… the blood all over your hands…
does it make you feel… more like a man…
was it all… just a part of your plan…
this pistol’s shakin’ in my hands…
and all I hear is the sound…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t live without you…
I breathe you…
I taste you…
I can’t live without you…
I just can’t take anymore…
this life of solitude…
I guess that i’m out the door…
and now i’m done with you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t live without you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t live without you…
I just can’t take anymore…
this life of solitude…
I pick myself off the floor…
and now i’m done with you…
Always…
Always ~ SalivaFirst verse of the song applies in part to me. Am I your one and only desire? I am the reason you breathe or I am the reason you cry? I always wonder if my relationship with Manny is more harmful than good to him and his life. The second verse applies more in my head than in reality. I feel like you don’t want me around.
The chorus is the main part of the song that I can relate to, this feeling of being tugged in two extreme directions. I love you. I hate you. I can’t get around you. I breathe you. I taste you. I can’t live without you. For most of our relationship, I was yo-yoing between these two polar emotions of loving Manny so much and not being able to stand him near me. One night at Calvin, Manny told me he loved me and my world just burst at the seams from all the pressure. Why would you tear my world apart? It felt like everything was just crumbling around me, which was confusing because love should build things up, not destroy them.
This song portrays a feeling of confusion and totally not knowing what to do or how to be happy. There is a feeling of frustration and desperation as he tries to sort out what he feels. He sounds like he wants to leave and never look back, but there is something that just won’t him go. Always Always Always He realizes that these feelings and this confusion will be there for always. There is a hopeless cry for help in the song.