in this silver night, the last star dies alone.

the road stretches infront of us
like a winding tree we have to climb
push the car faster and escape
from all the boys and confusion
i want to tell you i really do
so why do i lie to you
is it because you still love me
is it because i still love you
i almost wished i didn’t know
i almost wished we had never kissed
altering both our lives forever
was it for the better or the worst
was all the screaming and crying
all the fighting and biting
really worth the pain i’m in now
move on he says just date again
but to me i’m cheating on you
i did that once cheating with you
and i swore never to do it again
i almost wish you would just go away
disappear into the night and foreign lands
i’ll pretend you never existed
if you can just leave me dreams
drunken nights and corina, corina
why does the hero always get the girl
why can’t i be the girl for once
you think you are inside my tower
but time builds another, locking you out
this is the magic that surrounds us
this is the black magic that kills me
never ending always hiding
there are things i purposely don’t say
things i purposely don’t do
i don’t think i’ll ever relax again
if i’m so strong…why do i feel weak
if i’m so amazing…why am i such a loser
if you love me…why aren’t you here
i know all the answers
and i know all the reasons
but my heart doesn’t accept reasons
and my head ignores the answers
all part of this sickness you don’t get
she gets this sickness
she knows i don’t get drunk for the fun of it
she knows there is something else
she knows how to let me relax
almost like a reaction i can’t control
i keep thinking stay on guard
don’t open up too much
you might get hurt again
but the uncontrollable action
is to love her and open up
and somewhere between the pool hall
and the highway, the Mobile
and her house
i open up and love her again
but i won’t and i can’t with you
what a paradoxial world