Prince Charming

don’t obesses over love he says
its not worth it
if love isn’t worth it
then what is?
what makes someone give their life for another
what makes people brave needles and bullets
if not love for others
live for yourself and you’ll be ok
i don’t think i even know how to do that
my life revolves around helping others
making them happy, fixing their problems
or at least giving them a reprieve
from the hell they believe they are in
i’ll take his advice and try to move on
try to live for myself and make me happy
but the face that stares back from the mirror
knows better, shows the truth
a hollow shell of what i once was
she’s a shell of who she was
does anyone talk about me that way?
does anyone care that i am suffering?
i’ve put all my hopes on Prince Charming
without even meaning to
maybe i should give up the search
how can someone else make me happy?
they shouldn’t have that burden to carry
then all i want is someone to help me
lift the empathic burden i carry
release the world’s pain for a moment
so i can breath without screaming
where is my prince charming?
he’s dead, the world killed him
and now its killing me