Talking to my friend online
ok i was online and my friend Melissa usually im’s me as soon as i get on… not sure why but she does but anywho she didn’t so i thought she was busy. i go off eat my dinner and come back and the first thing she says is
“sry I didnt im you but something bad is going on so just incase something bad happens to me I love you and your my bffl”
Okay so of course i freak out.. this is while my away message is on…ok i think in my mind you jsut don’t do that to someone. freak them out.. but anywho.. it didn’t end up being as horrible as i thought, she just found out something that a person had a gun and told the principle. well thats still bad, but i thought she was about to die that instant. My closest friends have so much in their lives… stress. and i have nothing… well not like whats going on in their minds. Melissa had mono and had to quite her favorite thing, dance for it… oh yea on monday we went up town looking for jobs, and we went to her dance place to see her friends that she hasn’t seen in 2 months, and she told me she was gonna cry… she almost didn’t until towards the end… it was so sad to see your bff cry. damn i was crying, but not that ppl actually saw.. i’m so emotional, and i kinda hate it too.. it’s usually about stupid things… i can’t help it.. ok anyway that’s what’s in her life.
My other bbf Cate loves skating but then she hurt her knee, and couldn’t and there was always that little note of you may have to have surgery, and now thta little note has come back, and tomorrow she has to get it. I feel so bad there’s nothing really i can do.. well i know to be there for Both of them but i know not fully. It’s over vacation too which kinda sucks.
You know what, you know how kids at young ages try doing sports and activities, to find out what they like.. well i Never did that when i was little, and i relly wish i did. I have nothing, all i do is play an instrument… which i like but i’m pretty much last anyway. But it sucks cause i know i’m better than some ppl in the band, but i get soo nervous playing alone a.k.a in auditions.. but i’m fine together in the band… that’s what i hate.
hmm well i think thats enough for now.. if you have anything to add… not sure why but i’m bored… but my sn here is the same one for Aim and you wanna tlak i’m usually here… ok well i should probably do homework now. buhbyes