82% ?!

I took my BA test today, and I got an 82 percent. This is 8 points less than my last test in this class, and if the trend continues, that’ll mean that I’ll get 72% on the next test, and 64% on the final. This is unacceptable to me, and I plan on doing something to change it.

This is the first real ‘challenge I’ve faced so far in school. I don’t like it. It makes me feel dumb – not that I can’t learn the material, just that I don’t have the habits to acquire the knowledge. This is something I’m going to enjoy overcoming. I mean, I have the wherewithal to do it, right? I just lack the habits – and I’m developing habits pretty quick. I think everything will work out in the end – I’ll just have to walk through life like always.

It’s good, though, because what I did to study for this test was read about half the material and attend like, 2/3 of the classes. I’m going to try to just DO THE FUCKING SUGGESTED READING and see if there’s a correlation that way. Yeah! That’s a great idea! I don’t necessarily have to like, superman study and all that jazz – I can just do what is suggested and see how that goes, because I’ve been doing less than suggested, and am now yielding less than acceptable results.

I went to the gym sunday, and I’m fucking wrecked. I strongly dislike stairs.

I did a significant portion of my BA reading, and it felt pretty good afterwards. I think that I may find reading as giving a larger sense of accomplishment than what I do currently, which is absolutely fucking nothing LOL. No, I do a lot of stuff. Or try, anyway. I think I want to start reading is the gist.

still happy, but a little more determined.

J-