The Guy

I mentioned Robbie in my last entry. Want to know about him? I wish I could say he was a boyfriend or that he’s in love with me, but he’s not. Saying the L word would screw things up. But we have the most amazing chemistry to the point its intoxicating. It literally makes me feel dizzy and takes my breath away. Maybe sometime, somewhere you had that feeling with someone and you know what that feels like.

He’s a big man. A little over 6 feet and solid. Brown hair and light blue eyes. And his chest is…omg…wide and perfect and not too much hair and the hair pattern on his chest makes me melt. How did i meet him? He was a client. LOL.  Once I was with him, I really could have cared less if I was ever with anyone else. I love it now because except rarily seeing Charles every few months, Robbie is my only lover. The anticipation to see him kills me, like right now he’s texting me telling me what he’s going to do to me if we can get together today. Makes me squirm. This man knows how to drive me insane.

I saw him over a year ago, as I said, when he was a client, then we became lovers because I couldnt stop seein him. He broke it off because he’s married (understandable) and his religious convictions made him feel guilty. It was almost a full year and then we ran into each other in public and it started all over again a few months ago.

He hasnt been with many women, maybe 3 (he saw like 2 other escorts and then his wife) but he is so so….attentive and I cant even think of the words to describe this man. Sadly, his wife hates sex. When she does decide to let him, she just lays there and acts like she cant wait til its over. This boggles my mind. You cant lay still with a man like this who touches you and talks dirty to you. She’s insane.

I know one day it will end, we have no expectations to ever leave our families and kids of course but he says he wishes we had met before and things would be different. Sigh. Oh well. I decided to "make it work" with my marriage but I wish we had that kind of passion.

Well, Im off to shower. Hopefully going to see him today if he can get out of work.