Tick Tock

Years ago, someone told me that whatever you are doing at the chime of the midnight hour on NYE is what you will be doing alot of in the coming year. Though I’m not a supersticious person, this always crosses my mind with a feeling of regret if I’m not having a good time when it comes to pass. If I believed it to be true, I think…dammit…I’m in bed alone not having a good time. I don’t want to be doing alot of that in the coming year. I mean, if I’m going to be in bed, I would atleast like to be having a good time!

But, right now I’m laying here trying to be warm, listening to my 3 year old snoring. Occasionally he mumbles in his sleep. The other 2 are asleep, and here I am just laying here wondering if I should rejoice watching midnight shows and eat a snack uninterupted since they are asleep. Every so often, someone in my neighborhood discharges a gun or sets off fireworks bringing in the fast-approaching New Year. Rednecks.

So, I don’t know. I’ve already perused the current news sites, I’ve glanced at streaming video of Times Square watching cold drunk people scream WOO! several times. I think to myself, I’m laying in bed on NYE watching other people having a good time. Oui.

Oh, the icing on the cake is that I woke up this morning in pain in my nether region and went to the doc today. I’m one proud happy owner of a bladder infection. Yay. Got meds, reaking havoc on my tummy but atleast I’m warm, laying here, wishing I was having a good time on NYE alone and slowly the antibiotics are doing its majic as I mentally prepare myself for the upcoming yeast infection the antibiotics will give me. Joy.

16 minutes left kids. and what have you done? Another year over and a new ones just begun. John Lennon.

Anyway, a big thanks for your supportive words from my last post. I am working on it. I believe there is one thing I need to take care of before I can move on and that is contacting my estranged best friend to let her know I’m sorry, that i love her and that she is missed. Who knows..she can either spit in my face…or accept my heartfelt words…we will either become friends again or walk our seperate paths as we have been doing. There are times I’ve enjoyed walking alone in the park, but walking alone without her in my life…well, its more than alone, it’s lonely.

May the New Year bring us all renewed hopes, warmed hearts and calming thoughts. Love you guys.