Done.

Theres a chance I might see her tomorrow. Should I just close my eyes to it? Im sad. I think I understand a bit now what you mean by dont trust your feelings, trust me. It doesnt mean completely disregard or disconnect yourself from your feelings. Just that, at certain times, my feelings are wrong and go against you. I am sad. This does not go against you. I am sad today, but I believe in you and trust in you.

So I might see her tomorrow. There I trust in you. I keep my eyes on you, with there being a chance that it will not be what I want it to be, and I almost called her just now to see if she wanted to hang out after, but I prayed about it and felt peace about not calling her.

I had a strange dream last night that starred Anthony Hopkins as a man who didn’t listen to your voice, decided not to move away from a town he lived in (where there was also a woman he loved) because he wanted to be with her. In the end of the story (which actually played at the beginning, so the audience knew the outcome) Anthony and the lady are very old and still not together.

the blue trees

April 16, 2008

that dream, to me, is your inner voice and intuition. it’s obvious to me that the man not moving away from his town over a woman [and not getting the woman] is a metaphor for your situation. the man’s inability to move on keeps him stuck in his ways. the end result is being old and alone. he doesn’t gain anything and in fact, seems to me he has lost himself. clinging to the impossible or obsessingover any thing or any one is never healthy. you must move on. and let go. if you want to heal and grow, you have to let go first. i know it’s hard and you don’t want to hear this. but, i am being honest and truthful with you based on my own past painful experiences. you have a whole world out there ahead of you. letting go and moving on makes room for all the new and wonderful experiences you’ve yet to experience. remember, every trial in life [even if sad and painful] is a stepping stone to a better self. it is necessary to go thru trials in order to grow. that is how you learn, trust, belief and faith. good luck.