Another beginning.
I’m reading a book called “Speak What We Feel (not what we ought to say)” and I was answering some people on my last entry, and I was wondering if I was speaking what I feel, or the opposite.
I’m very tired and cranky, but I do believe what I said. It just all seems so corny some times, to talk about God in this rose-colored glasses way, in this “God is Love” way, things that have been said before. It’s kind of the basis of my existence, though, so — and underneath these squinty eyes and tense shoulders, that’s how I feel. I feel both at the same time, really; not wanting to say it, but knowing it’s important enough to me to say.
I feel a bit sick today, to be honest. I should go for a run tonight. I just stretched, and I feel better. I have a long break at church after 2 straight months of a new video every week. I’m really excited about it. Yesterday I tried to not be so sociable at church, and 2 things happened: I didn’t run into as many people as I usually do, and; I felt relaxed.
Forgive me for my cliché beliefs. I will put effort into finding new ways of saying old things.
RYN… I’m sorry if it came off that I was being a little hostile in my last note. It was directed more towards some other noters who seem to believe that it’s impossible to do good without God. I was particularly upset by one note that essentially said that the love of an individual was meaningless without God’s love… but to me, the ability to connect to another person without the interventionof a religious guide telling us we should is the most powerful thing on earth. What else are we here for? And I do believe in some version of God… some higher power. But I also think that exists only within humanity, only because we believe it to exist. And I also believe that most religions are relics of an age when the threat of God kept the populace in line, but failed to really grow with the world because the Church was so powerful. ::shrugs:: I’m rambling now and this note is longer than your entry. 😉
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forgive you?? c’mon it’s your diary. Anyone who reads it is doing so of their own volition. you don’t have to apologize.
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