This is stupid, but I might as well ask.

Notebooks 4 Free.

I’m doing this, and it seems to be working fine so far, no spam sent or anything, and I’m breaking down and posting it here, so that maybe if this is something you’d like too, you could help me out in the process by signing up, and blah blah blah. I’m whoring myself for a laptop, I know, I’m whoring my diary, but that’s what it’s come to.

Thanks anyway, if not.

I’ve actually felt like shit focusing on it so much. I feel like I’ve made an idol out of it, you know how God says to, you know, not worship other things, and my mom says now idols are like Porsche’s, yeah. And laptops.

Money money money. I read this book a month ago or more, and it was claiming to be God, but I think it was not, and it was saying how money is great, how people just make it bad because they don’t like to feel good about happiness.

Anyway. I’m really annoying today, and, you know, big head maybe? I don’t want that anymore, I don’t know if I should fight confidence, and what’s too far? I need a lot of alone time, to center myself. And I’m obsessive, and I just talk about myself a lot don’t I?

I feel like I’m becoming the old me. Fucking laptops that I don’t even need. Fuck.