Faking it all those years.
I watched an artistic porn today. It had classical music playing behind it, and it was actually kinda pretty.
I tried to imagine Sarah’s face tonight. And it was just hard. I hate that.
And I have bad dreams all the time.
I am going nowhere with my life, and I look through Sarah’s yearbook (the one I took from her to sign…two years ago) and I see these thin faces and these losers, these ones I thought were going nowhere, Look Where I Am.
I am nowhere to be seen.
And, this really cool kid, this punk named Travis. I really thought he was cool. He just, you look at him, you think “cool”.
Thin face. Going to college at least, that’s something.
Me. Chubby face (back to where I was 5 years ago). JUST. Graduated from high school.
(Just two years late.)
Maybe it was that the porn film’s classical music made me feel sad. (In a good way, The good sad.) But this is how I feel.
And I miss people like Travis. I miss a bunch of people I cared about at heart but wasn’t actually friends with.
Look at me now. Just look at me.
you need to post a pic of yourself.
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Hey, this might sound corny as hell, but it’s not whats on the outside, and not even the inside really, it’s what kind of person you are. REALLY. I would know…
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you’re beautiful
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