She fell asleep and it was a no-go (away).

I just went nuts. And I just found out she didn’t break up with Mike.

And I just – I went crazy. (Not because of Mike, I just…I. Need help. Please help me. Please help me pleasehelpmepleasehelpme.)

I am so fucked up.

And she didn’t break up with him, and it hurts me so much. I’m! Crying! To you. You–I love you.

Do you understand how much I needed a phone call Everything.

I screamed out in my room. The worst it’s ever been, and for once, it wasn’t because of my dad, but it sounded like I was getting beaten. Fucking ass-raped by my dad.

(And I feel like she’s avoiding me.)

I’m so depressed. Distraught.

And I hate getting my feelings hurt. And then going crazy.

(But at least this time it wasn’t at her.)

I just wanna love her until the day she dies.

(I’m dying. Please understand that. That’s why I am. The way I am.)

Let’s go rollerskate.