Jon Weak.

Below, a letter I just sent Sarah. I hope she doesn’t take it the wrong way.

This isn’t me overeacting (for once).

I realized tonight that you’re in college.

And I want you to have a great time, I guess what I’m sort of doing, I mean now that Nathan’s there it’s sort of, I feel like, you know, No Outside Visitors, I mean, I guess last year it was me and Nathan, and now there’s one, and I don’t feel like you have enough time to devote here:

Which is why I’m writing.

I just want you to have good time. I don’t really want to get in the way, I love seeing you, and I miss you all the time, but I can’t expect it to be even what it was last year.

I just I have so many expectations for us and our friendship and I think it’s time I drop them.

I miss you dearly, dear. And this isn’t to place blame, it’s just what happens I guess, and I sort of do feel like I’m losing all my friends that mean anything, and like I told you the other day, I don’t really have anyone to help me anymore.

Maybe that’ll be good for me.

I love you so much. And that’s why you should be happy, and whenever you have free time, call. I’ll still call like I do.

I won’t expect you — I won’t expect anything.

P.S. I had a bath for the first time in a year and a little, it felt good.

P.P.S. If you don’t want me to drop my expectations, just tell me! 🙂 God, I feel like such a little kid when I “talk” to you on here.

I wish I could give this to you in person, like it used to be. God. It has been such a long time.

Love.