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So it’s been a few days. And a long while since I wrote an actual update. I don’t expect anyone reads this anymore, but oh well. I still read everyone, I just don’t note or anything. Mainly because I never know what the hell to say. Everyone’s lives seem to be so dramatic. And I’m at a loss for words when it comes to comfort. But whatever, I’m still here even if I don’t write or note.

It’s been over a year since me and Mike broke up. I can’t believe it. A year ago I was absolutely crushed. Absolutely depressed. And now, while I’m not the happiest girl in the world or anything, I’m very content. My boyfriend is beautiful, the most beautiful thing to grace this earth and I am so thankful that I met him. That he and I are together for now. It’s not a forever thing, at least I don’t think, and I know I’ll be crushed when it ends, but for right now, everything’s amazing.

My mom called BPCC today and asked about their GED program. The lady she talked to told her a few very interesting things. A) I will be going back to BPCC with a GED or not and taking a couple of classes, and B) The only reason I couldn’t go back last fall was because of my age. She said because I took the classes and did well, that there’s not a problem with me going back now. So I’m happy, because I get to go to school in the fall and also because I get to go to a GED program that actually knows wtf they’re doing. Thanks.

Last night I went swimming in the Red River. I got mosquito bit to hell and I have to put Benadryl on the bites every few hours or my arm itches and hurts. 🙁 My mom took all the Aleve to work with her for whatever reason and yeah, rawr. Pain. My Luna’s 18 now. <3 She turned 18 Saturday, and her mother is still treating her like a child. Sigh. I'm 17 and I haven't been treated like a child since I was, well, a child. You know what I mean.

Mike and I are in contact actually. We talk a few times a week. Sometimes I still talk to Jordan. He’s going to NC State, and I wish him luck. He and his gf broke up a few months ago. He was pretty sad about it, but I think he’s okay now ’cause they’re still friends and everything. My hair hasn’t been dyed in months. I’ve also gained 22 pounds, even though no one believes me and say I look exactly the same. But I know because I got weighed at the dr’s and my pants are all really tight. I bought new ones at Target and they’re kinda big, but I like big pants.

I’m on a diet and exercise program type thing. 1500 cals/day, 100 g carbs/day, and 1 hour of yoga once a day. I’m excited, actually. I want to lose about 40 lbs and I’m hoping this will work. I’m also going to the psychiatrist to see if he’ll put me on some drugs that won’t make me gain so much weight, since the Wellbutrin has stopped working. I just want to lose weight because I hate going to Goodwill and nothing fits. Rawr. The shirts fit fine, it’s just my damn hips.

And my Cory just called and told me he’d be over in about an hour and half or so, so I really must go shower and put some more Benadryl on my arm. Hope you all enjoyed my little update. <3