*and she takes a deep breath in* …..

….. and blows the dust away from it all.

Well. Hello, hello, hello. Isn’t it all shiny and new? As little as I normally like change, I’ve gotta admit, so far, this rocks.

Where to start? 

Firstly, I’m happy. I think that might be where everything else springs from – lately, I’ve been – content. No. More than content. Happy. *laughs* I don’t know why, really, because it’s not like much has changed. We’re still tits deep in debt. C is, once again, out of a job. The economy blows. My job is still mind-numbing most of the time. We still haven’t conceived. And yet, I’ve got this bubble of joy sitting under my heart that’s just – giddy-making, sometimes.

It’s that – I’m moving, I think. Not physically – well, not like picking up and packing shit and moving, moving – but I don’t feel stagnant anymore.

That’s it. My waters are running again, and that makes me bubble like a mountain-fed creek in the spring.

I’m actually exercising, and exercising consistently, for one thing. So far, I’m at Day 21 of 21 (hells yeah) and – *laughs* – I’ve lost and gained back the same 12 pounds. I actually ‘magically’ lost 7 pounds since yesterday. C is upset because he magically gained 10. I’m secretly thrilled that for the first time (ever, I think!) I actually weigh less than he does. But, all that’s moot, because I feel good. I’ll admit, it sucks working out. It hurts, I’m hot and sweaty and putting myself through unneeded shit – but it feels good.   

I was chatting on HB1 about self-love today, and I vocalized one of the things that’s been simmering on my backburner for a while. How can I say that I love myself, when I allow my temple – the only body I’ll ever have – to be in ruins, ramshackle and painted shabbily? Hrmph. I can’t, is what, or at least not to the extent that I claim I do.

So, we started the Body For Life Challenge. Of course, the chance to win 25K doesn’t hurt, but really, it’s more about me Making me all better – stronger, faster, smaller, healthier.
And the funny thing is that C being out of work has actually made this whole process so much easier – it’s amazing how much more time taking care of yourself entails.

What else has me bubbling? Ah – I’m getting more involved in my church. It’s – fun. I think. *laugh* We’ll have to see how I feel about it in a few months.

My personal practice hasn’t budged much, though. I’m in 3rd Realm now, and I really need to start working on my BOP, but – meh. That will come, and soon, I think. I’m not going to rush it, at all.

I’ve been reading, a lot more lately. I got an iPhone, and if you love books and have the iPhone, you’ve gotta get Stanza. I’ve got over 200 books, none of which I’ve paid for, and it’s really easy to use, and not hard on the eyes, at all. I’ve never been a fan of electronic books, but I can definitely see myself using this as a full-out book replacement – esp. when I’m traveling. The books that they offer for sale on it aren’t cheap, and I’m not sure if I would want to pay full book price for just the electronic copy of a book (I haven’t fallen that far in love), but for the free books offered, it’s well worth it. Reading always makes me feel better – exercises my brain, somehow. 

🙂 

And now, I need to go cook dinner, as it’s almost 9, and I have to be in bed by 11.

More joy, later.