Vocalization.
I think the feelings of loneliness and unattractiveness were just insecurity. A simple correlation, as I’ve felt better since talking to Victoria about various things. Man, direct communication rules.
I asked if I could touch her butt. She said.. no. Which made me go, “What?!! Gah!! How do you know I won’t just grab it anyway?”
To which she replied, “Because you respect me, and you looooove me.”
And to which I replied, “Damn it, she’s on to me.” Ha ha. These are the little things I like to annotate that I might completely forget if I didn’t write it down.
Did I really hit the gym this morning? I’m already getting an itch to lift, only to have me realize I get a rest day tomorrow. This is a good sign. This means I’ll really tear into 5×5 squats and deads on Friday. Oh yes. :: growls ::
Tomorrow feels like it’ll be a good day. Hit the CPR lab before class. Man, those compressions and ventilations get tiring. It’ll take practice. I’m not sure how long it will be before I get it down. Maybe do some chem homework. Maybe. Hit up chem lecture. Relax prior to employment. I haven’t decided whether to shift my grocery-fetching to Thursday or Friday night. I want one or the other, so I can free up Saturday night to socialize with Cliff – as staying up late Sunday infringes on Monday morning lifting.
Oh, and of course, wanking discussion. My experiment, so far, seems to be an utter success. I attempted to wank last night. I achieved a nice erection, but I could tell my arousal level was too low to bother continuing. It just didn’t feel that good. So I let myself go flaccid. Today? Hard as a rock. I wanted to orgasm without tensing my thighs at all, as I tend to do that in order to “force” an orgasm. Typically if my glans is juicy, it’s a good sign. Damn it was good today. Something I’ve noticed lately is that I’ve been gasping out loud as I approach and as I orgasm. Vocalization? Who knew? Ha ha. I was pretty quiet when I fornicated with Paige.
But yes, sleep. I thought the dark wind* might howl today, but it never came. For now, I am content.
*We’ve all played Chrono Trigger, right?
i have not played chrono trigger. i’m still discovering the fabulousness of Harvest Moon: Another Wonderful Life. i am so capitalistic. i have over $5mil, and every rare crop in existence, but i want MORE! also, playing the game makes me feel like i’m on vacation. the graphics rule, for a GC game.
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I’ve played Chrono Trigger. Still don’t get the reference, though. It’s been years. And you admitted to wanting an outline/plot this year too, so stop judging me with your judgy little eyes. DON’T WRITE TO ENTERTAIN, WRITE FOR YOUR SOUL. PLOTS ARE FOR LOSERS, BLAH BLAH BLAH I KNOW EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD <3
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well, the reason i ask is because she just did that with me. i don’t get it. she leaves nothing but pleasant notes for years, then all of a sudden i need to “get over” myself. the reason i asked you is because she used to love you to pieces, then all of a sudden, she started plastering peoples diaries about what a bad guy you are. so i guess she does this regularly. good to know. i was thinking maybe her rude notes to me really meant something, now i realize she’s insane.
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