Exerbabble for 10-5-7

Today’s Workout:

NROL, Hypertrophy I
Day B, Workout VI

BB Back Squat:
3 @ 45 lbs
3×15 @ 95 lbs

BB Deadlift w/Shrug: 15, 13, 6 @ 135 lbs

Alternating Sets:
DB Bulgarian Split Squat: 3×12 @ BW
DB Step-up: 3×12 @ BW

Reverse Crunch: 3×15 @ BW Rest: 60 seconds

(Usual stretching.)

Ew. High reps take so much out of me. I don’t know why. I find my ability to recover severely impaired. I felt so emasculated using such little weight. Squats burned on the last set. Deadlifts, I just ran out of gas. I don’t know what happened. Maybe I didn’t have it in me today.

Maybe I thought I’d spot myself some room to grow, rather than kill myself and make it impossible to match.

Also, it’s been about two years now since I randomly decided to get over my fear of the gym and having other men see me naked. Since then, countless men have seen my weenie. And, oh yeah, I’ve filled out. And yet I feel uneasy. I have a hard time giving myself credit if I feel like I don’t deserve it.