As I exhale.

She communicated she wanted some space today. So I’m respecting her request. So much for wishing her a happy menstrual cycle.

It makes me feel a little rejected, I’m embarassed to say. But as usual, I face the emotion, and it doesn’t bother me. I generally don’t like feeling ignored, and there’s the whole fear of being abandoned. Just recurrent feelings that come and go.

I’m kind of on the run, myself, as it is. I don’t exactly have much time to spare, I just like being around her. The CPR orientation went okay, and I’ve plotted out on a printout of my schedule when I’ll make appointments to hit up the CPR lab. I intend to be very aggressive with this class to get everything out of the way quickly. I have chem lab in fifteen minutes, which I absolutely loathe. I never learn anything in college labs.

Nobody can be my AP Physics teacher, Mr. Gounaud. He taught me more than most college classrooms.

Time to breath is critical, and for now, this time is up. As I say to myself so often, “It’s go-time!”