a tired life for me

You know, am I destined to be constantly tired my entire life? I think it’s just the fact that I’m not a morning person. I got sleep last night. I actually got sleep last night. I was out before 10 PM. Bam. Exhausted. I can only do so many nights in a row of getting four, three, two hours of sleep, before I feel like I haven’t slept at all. That was last night.

So I got up sometime after 8 AM. That’s around ten hours of sleep? But the thing is, I could have just as easily stayed in bed. I could have easily slept until past noon. I always can. I am not a morning person. This is why I don’t get up early, because I always feel so goddamn tired. I don’t wake up until later in the day. It’s a daily struggle to make it through the early part of the day so I can wake up towards the end of the day, so I can sleep earlier and get adequate rest just to repeat the cycle.

I’m so tired I can’t think of anything else to say.

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January 22, 2006

i can identify with this. i can safely say there is almost never a time of day when i feel truly awake. why are we always so tired?!

January 22, 2006

Very ditto.

ryn: YOU shouldn’t be complaining… you got the details on LJ hehe

January 22, 2006

‘Mornin. xxx

January 22, 2006

Oops. I put the ‘ on the wrong part of the word. I’m not a morning person either.

ryn: welllll TURKEYPOO!

January 22, 2006

ryn: I’ll have to hang onto that one. I am working on finding a good excercise method. I do like yoga. I am actually pretty muscular (where the chub doesn’t cover it up), particularly my arms and legs. It’s from carrying the enormous children around all the time. They’re at that point where they really are getting too big, but, hey, it’s making my biceps pop. xxx

January 22, 2006

ryn: I know better, I know it’s bullshit, but I am still freaked by all the articles that tell me that if I try to lift weights before I’m skinny, I will end up looking like the Michelin man. It is important to me, though, that I retain the ability to kick the ass of the average male after I lose weight. I’m already doing the diet thing. Just changing my portion sizes, trying to get better >

January 22, 2006

>nutrition. Nothing severe. I’ve been overweight (or on a diet) my entire life (seriously; I weighed over ten pounds at birth), and I’m really ready for some changes that are less structured that I will be able to continue long term.

January 22, 2006

ryn: The worry is not that I’ll have huge muscles, but that the muscles will puff out my fatty parts. I know it’s dumb. It’s just a way for the beauty industry to keep us femenine enough, you know?

RYN: What you say is true grasshopper *nods* Very true dear boy

Me = Absolute Non-Morning Person.

mornings are overrated, but sleep is not. sleep is good.

January 22, 2006

I can do that too – it seems like I never actually get enough sleep. Cloud is the same way.

It’s long been my contention that morning should not start before noon. The only time I’ve ever not felt like I could sleep forever was when I first went on disability. Having nothing to do, and having no children yet. I had no time I had to go to bed by and no time I had to get up by unless I had an appt for something. It really helped manage my depression to sleep whenever I wanted to because I

finally was getting all the sleep that I needed. It was no surprise to me when I had kids that my depression got worse again, not just because of PPD but because I now have to be on a specific schedule again which means my body isn’t getting the amount of sleep it requires by half. Rose

January 22, 2006

I hate mornings.

January 22, 2006

Thank you, this explains my entire cycle of living these days.

January 22, 2006

ryn- Considering you just wrote me that note to piss me off I’m going to delete it. If I’m “showing it” then you can have some class in your supposed “compliment”. But as your intention was only to get a rise out of me I suggest that you f*ck off and get a life. Go beat off to someone else.

i totally understand you. this is why i work 3rd shift. then i get to sleep all day and feel great in the afternoon

January 22, 2006

ryn- It wasn’t a compliment. It made me feel dirty and pissed. Compliments don’t make people feel dirty, nor do they piss people off. You said that with the SOLE intention of getting this response. Well you got it, now f*ck off.

Thats been me for a week now..constantly tired and Im not liking it at all.