Emotional Maturity.

When I was much younger and immature, I was hung up on the difference between platonic and romantic. Any time a girl paid any attention to me, I thought she liked me. I saw platonic as the absence of romance, and I saw romance as… any modicum of emotion. Any modicum of that infamous word like.

Something’s changed since my last big relationship. Rather simply, without realizing it, I’ve managed to rub an eraser on that old line and make it one giant blur. Platonic and romantic doesn’t exist anymore. I’m no longer hung up on whether I “like” someone or not. Emotions aren’t that simple. They’re much more complex than “platonic love” and “romantic love”. The things I feel for people are so complex, there’s NO way you can put them in either box.

It makes me feel so.. mature. I’ve matured beyond needing to label all of my emotions. I can just sort of be, and my emotions can sort of be, and whatever happens, happens. There’s no need to establish whether I “like” someone or not. One step at a time, I’m free to flirt and be playful. This is the reason what happened with Melissa was so positive for me. It’s really a simple concept. I’m one step closer to just being.

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September 17, 2005

congratulations.

September 17, 2005

Indeed, you have grown/matured a lot. 🙂 *throws confetti*

September 17, 2005

Timmy, I’m proud of you.Now teach me how.(:

September 18, 2005

Yes, that is awsome. And I’m happy for you. Emotions are not evil, as I am being led to believe…It’s a lesson sometimes long learned. . . You have known me a crypt.of.an.angel Lol, I changed me name…I needed a change. Sorry to just pop up like that…without warning…with a new name. lol, forgive me?

September 18, 2005

ah, timmy. how you’ve changed.

Interesting. It’s good that you took the negative in your life and tried to turn it into a positive reinforcement. That’s what I try to do, for the most part. I used to believe that love was the only goal in life, but lately I have discovered that being at peace with one’s self is much more important. ryn: not looking for one : )

September 18, 2005

Yaaaaay!! I love fireworks!!!

September 18, 2005

Dale has kind of taught me that. I don’t know how you’d define emotional maturity so I can’t subscribe to that either…I think for me there is a blur between my reservedness/uptightness and whatever emotional maturity I have. Maybe they’re tributaries to the same stream. Wow. That’s a word I haven’t used for a while. Used to be one of my favorites as a kid….

ryn: Don’t worry, I’m not interested in your balls.

September 18, 2005

🙂

RYN: good eye! the pic of stitch the super stalker kitty is indeed 800 x 600. i’m really enjoying this camera WAY too much.

September 18, 2005

hehe! Now I’m gonna have that song in my head 😛