Timmy

March 24, 2004

Never the right words.

Is the need for acceptance all there is? Is it that simple, is there nothing more to the puzzle for me to figure out? Maybe there is more. But this. THIS. The need for acceptance permeates everything so subtly that I usually don’t see it. I knew that simply annotating things, good and bad, that I need to accept wasn’t sufficient. But it was necessary.

I want that internal confidence, that drive. I want the world to be my taco.

And when people ask me how my Spring Break was, a part of me freezes, because I’m afraid of what the right answer is.

I’m not sure whether I should take the time to slowly go through this, or quickly pull myself together so I’m functional for 24 hours. That’s all I have left for that Metaphysics midterm. Two weeks, nevermind all the time before that, and I’ve done nothing. It’s such a great defense mechanism. When faced with stress, my mind completely detaches from everything. Nothing matters. And so I don’t feel stress, I avoid it, I push it away, I bury it. The bad thing is that the adversive elements still remain. The dark cloud remains overhead, waiting to strike me with lightning as soon as I come up from my burrow in the ground.

Dolor Angelicus

So this was favourites only because…? ^_^() You’re so weird.

ShatteredSoul

March 25, 2004

HOORAY!!! PUSSISM!

Men…

are you sure about this? because I get the impression that you’re homo.

oobi

hahaha favourites only 🙂 also, you should make your diary name “Vagina”.

personally I find the vagina is an ugly thing. I’ve seen pictures of pretty ones, and they’re still frigging ugly. whether hairless or hairy, old or young, they all seem like grubby, goobie, mutant things. now, a good penis? well, don’t get me started.

I was being sarcastic.

by the way, i checked out that link. The pictures were…interesting. I was only disturbed by the ones of you cumming. I suppose it was just too much information, or something.

Pilgrim

Jenny made me laugh. And your damn right I’ll violate copyright laws LOL

you gotta quit changing your name!! if i came and there was no timmy pic i would have a clue who you were! taco=vagina. i giggled.

screw acceptance!

seabee

Your pictures are very pretty timmyboy.

cont … you can’t please everyone

I’d put it all aside long enough to do well in your class. It seems to me, though, that the need for acceptance drives everyone, but a lot of it is that so few people accept themselves; so many people turn to others to validate their existence instead of just believing in themselves, believing that they are just as worthy as the next person.

I understande perfectly well. it isn’t somthing that you can explain to anybody who asks. I’m not going to tell you what to do – its just somtimes you gotta bend the rules and so fuck it!

ryn-you have been on my faves list for a LOOOONG time. before the dm even had a tiny little thought of coming back to the site.

Desert Rein

People ask me how mu cruise to Mexico was and I tell them: Great. I slept 16 hours a day in our nice dark quiet room, went horseback riding in Ensenanda then slept the rest of the way back. The only thing I did other than sleep was eat.

Ampris

I know =/

'Rella

RYN: He was up singing Grand Opera all night, what do you expect? 😉 Be well,

like.this

i can really relate to this entry. i hope you enjoyed your spring break anyway..,

I love the way you talk about the random stuff you do, in such an honest yet strange manner! It’s wonderful.

I will be your taco, and you can eat me. *is a taco*

*hugs you*

Yes, I know its the same water. That’s not the problem. THe problem is the inside of hte tank is NASTY. I don’t care abotu the water, I care about the other shit that’s in there, the grime whatever the hell that gunk in there is, that’s all over my wash cloth. THAT is what pisses me off.

ryn: Aw…I can deal with being lost in the crowd…^^

Tempest

ryn: the joke was saying the priest sank he thought he was good enough to walk on water because “god” was on his side. the rabbi had used stones to go across and everyone thought he’d walked on water, the wiccan priestess actually DID walk across the water. So it was a joke for a pagan benefit, kinda having fun on christian behalf. =)

blondscorpio

If they don’t like how you spent YOUR spring break – fock em – it wasn’t theirs to like, it was yours.

This was favourites only?! Timmy … honey … slow down on the analysis … just try and get through the midterms … then you can take a timmy-moment