Apparently

Replaceable
(My shoes are easy to fill)
Demotable
(I’m your pawn)
Ignorable
(What I think doesn’t matter to you)
Stupid
(I don’t know anything, really)
Retarded
(I’m a fuckup and we all know it)
Melodramatic
(I’ll always blow things out of proportion)
Small
(I have no pull with anyone to change anything)
Weak
(In every sense of the word)
Insignificant
(Just another face)
Unneeded
(You could easily find someone to take my place)
Invisible
(You’d forget me if you couldn’t hear my voice)
Unimportant
(Do what you want whether I like it or not)
Passive
(I always give in)
Appeasing
(I aim to please)
Used
(Sometimes paid for it, sometimes not)
Accommodating
(I always go out of my way if I can)
Useless
(Just a machine that makes money)
Unopinionated
(My opinion really doesn’t matter, so why have one?)
Unaware
(If I had a clue, I’d know you’re right)
Unstable
(Every little thing makes my world cave in)
Worthless
(Never was anything special)
Over-reactive
(One little thing can keep me down for hours or days)
Needy
(I need you more than you need me)
Whipped
(I’ll always try to please you)

It all makes sense now…
*
“There are times when I’m just a shell
When I do not feel anything for anyone
All I feel is hollow and bruised
Used up and misused
Forced to be someone I don’t want to be
Have I failed somehow or some way
Will the weight of today finally pull me down to drown
In the depths of despair
Where I am alone
Except for my rage
*
My rage
My pain
I hate my darkest days.”
*
Stabbing Westward
I really wish I could just turn my brain off…
But yeah…I think I’m sick of work right now