This Is Mine

Once there was a boy who was told the world could be his. He was told he could be anything or do anything. He had no reason to doubt the truthfulness or sincerity of those telling him such things, and so he believed it.

Growing up, the boy had enough dreams that he could’ve filled a set of encyclopedias with all of them-if anyone could’ve gotten him to sit still long enough to write them down.

The thing about life though is that even if you have no one teaching you how it is, life itself will eventually show you what’s up.

One by one those dreams were swallowed by time and circumstances and all he was left with was the rotting pit of indigestion in his stomach.

There was a time he wanted to change the world. There was a time he wanted to be famous and have everyone know his name and pat him on the back. He wanted to be the one that everyone else looked to in envy. He wanted to be the one to make a difference and leave his mark in a way that would never be forgotten.

But like a populous city hit by a plague, all those noble aspirations were killed off one-by-one.

Now the boy is a man and sitting at his computer while he ponders life and things like that. The boy that grew is me. Yet of all the grand ideas and desires I had, the best and most noble of all of them is one I couldn’t even think of until now because I didn’t know you.

I can be content being a nobody. I can be content working a job and paying bills the rest of my life. I can be content putting up with every piece of shit that life throws at me in its sadistic attempt to make me quit. I can handle it all…

As long as I can make you smile. As long as I can be the one that you run to. As long as I’m the shoulder you cry on. As long as I can be the one you tell your best-kept secrets to. As long as I can talk with you for hours on end and we outlast the batteries in our phones. As long as I can hold you and keep you safe while you sleep. As long as I can be there to look you in the eyes when you wake up. As long as, together, we can make time stop and no longer measure it in days or weeks or minutes, but in smiles and laughs and memories.

Perhaps my aim isn’t quite as broad or as illustrious, but it’s what my heart tells me to shoot for. Every event in my life has led me here and prepared me for this.

If there’s any kind of grand plan or design to life, this is mine.

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This kind of came out of some conversations that I’ve had with friends recently, as well as some added thinking. Perhaps it’s a little obscure and vague, but I suppose if it doesn’t make sense to you then you weren’t meant to understand it.
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“Cause I see in you more than you’ll ever know…”
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