I Am Jesus

Yes, I feel like Jesus. Not exactly the Biblical version of him though.

I know I’ve written about the movie The Last Temptation of Christ in another entry waaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy back at the beginning of my diary, but I was kind of thinking about that today.

I suppose I could write a whole entry about what Jesus was like in that film, but I won’t. I’ll just say that I think that I have a ton in common with the film’s presentation of Jesus.

One of the biggest things I think I have in common with “Jesus” is that in the film he is talking about how he feels so much pity for mankind. Now I know, there are tons of times that I totally hate anyone and everyone just because I have mood swings or something that makes me prone to be that way. But there are lots of times that I really do feel sorry for everyone. Why? Because everyone is in the same boat as me.

We’ve all been born and we’re all going to die. We all spend our lives searching for purpose and fulfillment (in whatever way we think will be the most effective), we all have hopes, we all have fears, and we all run from the one thing we can never out-run forever.

And as much as I am faced will all of the same things as everyone else, a part of me still feels pity towards everyone else (even though I can’t do anything to change anything). Well, I suppose not during rush hour, but at other times.

I think the thing that kicked off this whole train of thought was that I watched the movie Deep Impact (one of my favorite disaster flicks). I guess it just made me think about how, even though everyone is different, we are all the same in a way. We’re all in the same boat.

So here I am. Once again I feel like suck a huge freaking paradox. Part of me would love to go pull a Natural Born Killers’ and just go on a killing spree and become famous that way. Another part of me feels sorry for everyone on this whole damn planet. So who am I? I don’t even know.

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“You’re such an inspiration for the way that I will never, ever chose to be

Oh so many ways for me to show you how your God has abandoned you…”- A Perfect Circle