notes to self

I want to give my job notice of my intent to throw in the towel

one month

Two month notice?

It’s the hardest when I’m alone, my mind races with thoughts of Nelly and the ever increasing problems at work.

I really feel I’m at a breaking point

just wondering- when it’s going to finally boil over-=I’m like a Mt Saint Helens.

Oh the wedding, Is a happy thought. My buckskin looks very beautiful on me–I just need to try and regain my weight back.

I need a sash!!!

Eddie wants to wear jeans with his buckskin shirt

(?)

I’m in the search for a Drumming group to play during the ceremony. I will ask my own tribes drumming group. Wondering how much I should gift a drumming group?

I went over to the spiritual leader of our tribe’s house on Saturday. He lives in a beautiful part of Washignton– in the foothills of the Olympic Mountains. We planned out our ceremony. It will be lovely

I’m working 13 hours this week and most likely the weekend

there really is no end

of course no overtime because I’m salaried

I asked the last nurse who had my position why she quit–She was also overworked and stressed out.

I worked non-stopped last night, handled two crisis –didn’t have time to eat lunch or dinner.

not to mention family members in distress that their dad is ill and had to go to the hospital–dehydration–he is end stage Alzheimers disease, it doens’t help that the caregivers were also crying

Oh the Divinci Code–I googled Opus Dei–Very devout Catholic group–I never heard of them before. The unofficial website of the Opus Dei made for some good reading.

I want today to be cry free day–I just wont count the morning tears I shead

A god I’m crying again…