NOTES TO SELF

I thought I would free write every day just to rid myself of the junk that is in my btain. I have a wonderful ARNP who is in charge of my mental and physical well being,she wants me to start journaling every day about me. I was happy to find out that all my labwork came back normal. TSH was in normal range. Yeah! although I was hoping it would have been off kilter because I have been so out of it lately tired all the time, no energy, losing weight, not. sleeping. at. night. A medication adjustment would of fixed the problem.

It is stress related. I never had stress before.

Stress because my pending wedding–will no one come? or now will to many people come?

I’m very unhappy with my job situation. The extra money isn’t worth it, plus it seems the Governemnt gets 2/3 of it. Is it really worth the stress. I manage the health of 56 dementia patients, do the scheduling for 30 caretakers, handle arranging replacements when the caregivers call in sick which is all the time. It seems this younger generation doesn’t have a good work ethic and don’t walue their jobs. I hire new people and some don’t even come to work, don’t even bother to call and let me know they quit–don’t even return my calls.

Not to mention a Nursing shortage–I’m down one nurse

which means I’m working almost 7 days a week

I’m salried –which means no overtime, hell the floor nurses are making more money than me.

I feel so bad for my Eddie, I come home for work most days and can barely move, let alone cook dinner, clean the house and wash clothes.

The housekeeper came yesterday to make dinner..she made a pot roast It was a nice gestures but I don’t appreciate her using my fine Kendal Jackson Merlot as one of the ingredients. My new bottle was 3/4 empty.

Enough all ready

Just got a call that one the caregivers called in sick

here we go again.

Life is really sucking right now

SPELL CHECKER isn’t WORKING

I had to come back and write one more thing down that is just eating me right now

The housekeeper wears short skirts and clunky healed shoes while she cleans/cooks

She told me I looked like shit–

Now that I think of it one of my dementia patients told me I wasn’t looking very good.

Dementia patients are bluntly honest.

ok

I don’t want to look bad for my wedding day