SELF HELP
I really haven’t been able to do very much these last couple of weeks, well it really has been months but I’m just afraid to admit it. My depression has creeped back and hangs on me like a looming cloud. I quit taking my depression medication months ago because I was feeling normal again. I hate taking pills! although, I administer hundreds of pills a day to my patients. You think I would take better care of myself. I take better care of my patients than I do me. I paid a visit to my nurse practiconer last week. I told her a felt like a “wilted sunflower.” I thought maybe my TSH was low which may have been causing my bleakness. I also had her test my prolactin and FSH (baby making hormones) My lab work came back normal. She gave me samples of Wellbutrin XL. I have to be honest with myself and admit that I have clinical depression and not situational depression I may have to take medication for the rest of my life. God I hate this I just wish I could be normal well balanced person.
CONTRIBUTORS TO MY DEPRESSION
- Radiated thyroid
- Genetics
- Low self esteem
- Inability to have a baby
- Job situation
- Inability to make and keep friends
WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP MYSELF
- Take my Wellbutrin and Synthroid every morning
- Exercise: walks, bike riding, snowshoe, ski
- Eat three well balanced meals a day
- drink plenty of water
- Continue to write about my depression, keep track of my moods
- Do better with my fly lady routine
- Some how try to cultivate friendships?
CURRENTS
CURRENT RANDOM THOUGHT
I need to take my medications–Now!!
CURRENT MOOD
Weeping
CURRENT WINE
CURRENT IRRITATION
I’m irritated with my self for not taking my medications.
CURRENT LURKER OD SITE
MSR
He is an amazing writer! I hang on to every word and anticipate every entry. I’m afraid to note him because he might check out my diary and have a good laugh at my lack of writing talent.
LINGERING QUOTE
The Aim of life is to live and to live means to be..aware joyously,drunkenly,serenely,divinely aware..Life is truely known only to those who suffer loss, endure adversity and stumble from defeat to defeat
ANAIS NIN
CURRENT READ
Cultivate……..Cultivate!!!!!! You can email me ANYTIME you need a shoulder… Heck,,,,,,,I use other shoulders….but love people to lean on me also! Hugs to you! Thanks for cheering for me…..I TRULY appreciate it!
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can I ask WHO msr is? I clicked on the MSR and I don’t have access to it… hmmm?
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I’m so sorry you’re struggling right now…know that there is a cyberfriend in Florida who will keep you in her thoughts:::love to you:::
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I’m having a hard time as well with the idea of taking an antidepressant. It somehow makes me feel “less than.” The odd thing is if I had to give an antidepressant to one of my patients I wouldn’t consider them less than. I would know that they needed it for whatever reason. I hope you begin to feel better soon. M.
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RYN: I love Everwood and Gilmore Girls…… I enjoy the true to life events in E….and the giggles in and sarcasm in G G……. smile
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you are a marvel on the computer. your diary is artistic and interesting with all the quotes and thoughts. i take Effexor XR and have been doing so for at least two years. it sure helps me manage the ups and downs and they are not as dibilitating. are all of us that work in mental health suffering from our own mental problems?? i hear more and more all the time.the whole world seems depressed
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Yay! My first noter….thank you. Depression is an evil thing indeed. I think everyone has some form of it. I hope you start feeling better. I know it’s a rough time, but it looks like you know of some ways to make yourself feel better. Take care 🙂
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Your diary never bolds on my list when you post……another benefit of the new OD I guess. I loved your description of ‘friends’….too funny. I am sorry you are struggling now….peaks and valleys.
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What is a radiated thyroid? It brings to mind a test that was done on my thyroid when I was 13, involving a huge machine and a radioactive pill.
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I like the current read. I dont’ have that one. I have a different one about her though. Pretty awesome tale!
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Don’t we know that medical personnel make the worst patients? When I was in the field, it was looked upon that way because we were so busy taking care of everyone else, we didn’t have time to take care of ourselves. Don’t know if that’s right or not, but it sure sounds dead on to me.
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In the unsolicited advice column: I have suffered low self esteem in the past. One thing that helped me is this: When someone gives you a compliment, just say thank you. I used to have a habit of making excuses for compliments. Like, “You look great in that dress” I’d say, “Oh, I’ve had this for years, it’s so old”. Now I just smile and say thanks. I swear it helped me. Try it. 8)
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