Month Of May so far

SO far the month of May sucks big time.

Something happened the beginning of the month that prompted/propelled me to come to the decision thart I was going to get a divorce. MY last straw nearly broke me and I called an attorney and phone consulted another one. I also called my doctor and he put me on Lexapro to see if it would help with my scattered emotions.

Of course, just as soon as I made the appointment, you KNOW something had to happen to throw that damn monkey wrench into it.

My husband had a rountine colonoscopy scheduled (yes, the day of my appointment). He had our oldest son take him since he felt that if he were woozy Chris would be more of a help to him that I would (Chris is 6 ft 3 and I’m all of 5 ft 3, hubby is 5 ft 10).

Right before I left for work about 8:45 Chris calls and says that they found some polyps which they removed and that they had also found a very large mass further up in the colon. SO I decided to go to the hospital because I didn’t have a good feeling. As I got there the doctor called my cell  (he’s also my gastroentrologist) and told me the mass was very large and he believes it is cancer and he couldn’t remove it. He wants hubby to have surgery ASAP. Later that afternnoon, he had a CAT scan and they found spots on his liver which is still of an unknown origin at this point. Today the doctor called him and said the polyps were a fast growing cancer and he was concerned about the spots on his lover since they were so close to the large mass (about 4 inches long).

So now this SUnday he has an MRI for the spots and a doctors appointment with the surgeons on Monday to talk about surgery and what to expect.

SO there went my appointment as I can;t do this now, It would cruel. And no matter how much and how badly he’s hurt me, I can’t and won’t hurt him when he’s down.

God certainly has a sense of humor…..just as I FINALLY make a stand (and I told him if he did this certain thing I would see a lawyer). so he kind of knew I was doing it even if he didn’t believe I would go through with it, life throws that curve ball……sigh