11/30/06

I’m exhausted.

I need to mail my rent check.

I need to clean my room.

I am donating my car (the one that no longer goes vroom) to the American Cancer Society. I know that technically I should try to sell it for at least a few hundred bucks. But this makes me feel better. Random acts of kindness and all that jazz. (I know I sound flippant, but I’m not. I do try to practice altruism when I’m able.)

I still call my cat “baby girl” even tho she’s no longer a baby, not to mention the fact that it’s a ridiculous term of endearment. heh.

I just drank out of the wrong can of root beer on my desk and am trying to not think about how very long the old one has been sitting there.

I am exhausted and keep getting distracted/zoned out by the goldfishes. The light glints off them just so, and it’s just….shiny. 🙂 I like shiny things.

I have to be awake in 5 hours. heh. Not gonna happen. *sigh*

My lab results came back relatively normal, so it’s probable that I don’t have any cysts on my ovaries. hoo. ray. *rolls eyes* Wish I could donate them to the American Cancer Society. (the ovaries, not the nonexistent cysts.) It also means I can not worry so much about making an appt to see a gyne for another few years. heh. :p My total cholesterol is 176. WoOt.

TMI slips out when I’m exhausted.

Work (psych center) now has a memo out saying “nominate your spouse” for “Spouse of the Year”….wonder whose bright idea that was, heh. Wonder what they’d do if I nominated AJ….*giggolz*

My oldest neice found me on MySpace and added me as a friend. That makes me happy. Even tho it’s been years since I’ve seen her, or her sibs. Oops. And I’ve never even seen her 2 yr old son.

I’m going to bed now I think.

And, I’ve decided I’m apparently not built for relationships. I suck at them, all of them. Family ones, friend ones, significant other ones, self ones, therapy ones.

I just need to quit hurting people and move to some remote place where no one knows me and be a fuckin’ crazy old spinster with a dozen cats and lizards and what all ever else. Cuz no matter how hard I think I’m trying, it’s apparently never hard enough.

whatever.