moonlight sonatas

1. What did you do in 2005 that you’d never done before?
Dated, had a long term relationship

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don’t think I made any last year or for this year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Don’t think so.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
…..Mobius.

5. What countries did you visit?
none

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
eheh.

7. What date from 2005 will be etched upon your memory forever and why?
I’m no good at remembering dates of the year, but AJ and I’s first ‘date’ would be one. July 9th. Tents. Stars. Bonfire. Jello shots. Handholding. *grin* And lots of How Many Ppl Does It Take To Change A Lightbulb jokes…

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
getting back in to nsg school.

9. What was your biggest failure?
failing back out of nsg school.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Does mental count? :op Not to mention getting into altercations with patients at work.

11.What was the best thing you bought?
Mercury, my laptop.

12. Who’s behaviour merits celebration?
lots of peoples, i’m sure, at some time or another.

13. Who’s behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
my own?

14. Where did most of your money go?
School

15. What did you get really, really excited about?
AJ

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
I don’t really associate songs with entire years. Some songs that were important this year: You and Me by Lifehouse, Broken by Seether & Amy Lee, Breathe and Citadel by Anna Nalick, and Everything by Lifehouse.

Compared to this time last year, are you:

17. Happier or sadder?
depends. probably more severly depressed on the whole. but happier, because of aj.

18. Thinner or fatter?
uhm. fatter, i think.

19. Richer or poorer?
poorer

20. What do you wish you’d done more of?
studied.

21. What do you wish you’d done less of?
procrastinating.

22. How did you spend Christmas?
with AJ, mostly curled up in bed.

29. What did you want and not get?
a C in nsg?

30. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Uhm. Not sure there were any specific bands. Maybe Breaking Benjamin or Damian Rice. Songwise, it would be the ones I listed already. As well as Wall in Washington by Iris Dement.

31. What was the best book you read?
Wicked

32. What were your favourite films this year?
Rent, Madagascar, Coyote Ugly, Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Boys Don’t Cry, Bend it Like Beckham. Oh. Did Garden State come out this year or last…?

33. How old did you turn on your birthday?
26

34. What is one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
hindsight is 20/20….

35. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
same old same old, tho…more ‘form fitting’ now? i actually own tshirts and jeans that *aren’t* 2 sizes too big. weird.

36. What kept you sane?
therapy. my cats. writing. AJ. Responsibilities.

37. Which celebrity/public figure do you fancy most?
uhm. Ani DiFranco?

38. What political issue stirred you the most?
i’m not overly stirred by politics. tho. the whole defrocking of gay clergy people is really disconcerting. I s’pose that’s religious and not political. I still detest Dubya.

39. Who did (do) you miss?
Donna! AJ when we’re apart. M.

40. Who was the best person (people) you met?
AJ, and her friend Jenfier. j.l. conrad (poet).

41. What was a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005?
hope hurts way more than apathy ever could.

42. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
ha. just one?? eesh.
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Journeys to plan
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure the life
Of a woman or a man?
-rent-

if you don’t ask the right questions
every answer feels wrong
i was a terrible waitress
so i started to write songs
and i don’t know how i feel
but i wonder if you feel like me
do you ever get wrapped up
in the folds of my memory
oh, yeah
hell, yeah
….
there’s a river of people
that runs past my eyes
and it’s beautiful enough
just to watch it go by
but the trouble with water is
she’ll always leave you for gravity
i never even told you
i had a crush on you or anything
oh, yeah
hell yeah

life is a b movie
it’s stupid and it’s strange
a directionless story
and the dialogue is lame
but in the he said she said
sometimes there’s some poetry
if you turn your back long enough
and let it happen naturally
oh, yeah
hell yeah
-ani d-

I’m sitting on a citadel
Contemplating life
Making a point to waste my time
I’m walking on clouds of white

What if I fall?
What if I don’t?
What if I never make it home?
What if I bleed?
What if I break?
And I find that I can’t take
The city below the Citadel
Holding my own hand?

And I’m breaking on the balcony
Breaking window panes
Killing the pain of broken hearts
I’m walking on clouds
Walking on stars

What if I fall?
What if I don’t?
What if I never make it home?
What if I bleed?
What if I break?
And I find that I can’t take
The city below the Citadel
Holding my own hand?

I’m holding on to something
It’s keeping me from jumping
I’m so afraid to go it alone
And holding up this fortress
With imaginary forces
Longing for a life down below

What if I fall?
What if I don’t?
What if I never make it home?
What if I bleed?
What if I break?
And I find that I can’t take
The city below the Citadel
Holding my own hand?
-anna nalick-

I don’t get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

What if I’d been born fifty years before you
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I’d be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?

And in a white sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you

Next door there’s an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away

I’m sorry, I know that’s a strange way to tell you that I know we belong
That I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest
-ben folds five-

And I still need the beauty of words sungand spoken
And I live with the fear that my spirit will be broken
-dar-