Shame On Me

Goodness. I mean, really. I need to make a better effort at writing in this thing. I’m really going to push myself to write every day, even if nothing exciting happens that day. I miss writing, and I think it will come more naturally if I do it more.

Some of these updates may be repeats. Sorry about that. Hopefully writing every day will avoid that confusion.

On the trying to get pregnant front – still nothing. My cycle is still out of whack, and two recent pregnancy tests show that I am not knocked up. I was hoping to have good news for Stan in time for Father’s Day, but no such luck. I REALLY need to start exercising and eating better. I keep making too many excuses. I just need to DO it and get over myself.

In other news – Stan and I are trying to buy a house. We’ve been looking for a couple months now, and have been pre-approved for a loan. We have an offer pending on a very nice house right now. We’ve been waiting for a couple weeks to hear back from the bank. We found a couple others we liked, but we really like this one, because it’s so big, and it’s a house we could grow into. Hopefully, we’ll hear something this week *fingers crossed*

Working for Chase is going well. I definitely don’t want to be on the phones any longer than I have to, but so far it’s okay. I’m still looking at jobs every now and then, because if something better comes along, I wouldn’t mind leaving. I’d love to get back into healthcare. But we shall see. The worst part about my job is working Sundays. I hate it, with a passion. I miss Stan all day, and it’s impossible to get people on the phone. If you DO manage to get someone, they’re angry that you’re calling on a Sunday. Stupid. Totally pointless for us to be there.

I referred to some new work friends last (real) entry. Laura, Jeffery, and Jessica. Jessica is now out. She dissed me a few times, and has shown her true colors as a fair-weather friend. I don’t need that, so I’m not dealing with it. Laura and Jeffery are still on my good list, though. I’m a little bummed because Laura is moving to Las Vegas in July, but I know we’ll keep in touch. And, she’s offered to let us stay with her and her fiance whenever we come visit. So now, of course, Stan wants to go to Vega for his birthday. Hey, I’m down 🙂

There’s still some discussion about Stan’s mom coming to live with us. For now, though, it seems she’s staying put at Chris & Tim’s. For which I’m grateful. That makes me feel like a bad person, but I can’t help it. I don’t think I’m ready for that. But I’ll do what needs to be done, should we decide that’s the best thing for her. She wants to go back to her house, but she doesn’t seem to realize that she wouldn’t be alone. She’d have help 7 days a week, at least 5 hours a day. And no car. She is in no condition to drive. She can barely walk, and that’s WITH a walker. Her hip has healed. She’s just got no balance, and refuses to take walks or eat anything to build her strength up. We explained all this to her a couple weeks ago, and I think it started to sink in a little, because she got sad and said she hated getting old. I can only imagine how tough it must be to completely lose your independence 🙁 His sister needs to work at being nicer to her mother, as well. She’s so bossy and blunt (bitchy, in Stan’s words) and they don’t tend to get along so well. It’s all been resolved, though… for now.

Ooh, I bought The Sims 3 the other day. I was so excited to play it… and I can’t. I play it for about 5 minutes, then my computer just suddenly reboots itself. From checking the games’ message boards, a LOT of people are having this same issue. It’s highly frustrating. I’m hoping a patch becomes available soon, or something. I heart The Sims!

I think I wrote a month ago that Stan has gout. Well, it’s gotten a little better, but not 100% yet. His toe still bothers him, and it swells up from time to time. He’s started wearing a normal show this past weekend (before it was a sandal and an Ace bandage), so that’s a good sign. He’s on meds now for the gout, but I’m not sure if they’re helping this current bout go away. He’s off the painkillers, though, thank goodness. His moods are much more stable.

I think this is about it. I’m sure I missed a lot of stuff, but if so, I’ll add it later. For now, I’m off to do some laundry and watch True Blood.

Happy Father’s Day to all the daddies out there. And RIP to my own Daddy.