Witch Hunt

I am sooooooooo pissed off right now. I HATE MY FREAKING JOB!  No, correction: I hate my employer.

Today I  was called into my managers office, along with a member of HR. I sit down, and my manager proceeds to tell me that someone wrote an anonymous ethics letter complaining about me, and so HR  has done an investigation. I already knew all this, from other sources at work, so it wasn’t a shock to me. I know they interviewed a bunch of people on my team who hate me, as well. But I kept quiet, and let them talk. They told me they interviewed some people, and that basically everyone they spoke to had the same complaints about me – that I’m rude and intimidating when they call the queue. So, they said, at this time, we’re removing you from your position of senior coordinator, and you’ll be back as a regular rep starting tomorrow. What. The. FUCK?! I told them that this was completely unfair, that I hadn’t had so much as a WARNING about this. My manager reminded me of an incident with a patient back in October, which was another totally unfair situation that I got punished for because he didn’t have the balls to stand up for me  (nor did my supervisor), and said that I had been spoken to about that. I reminded him that what he’s referring to was a patient, not employees, and that the whole thing was unfair. I told them I’d really like for them to put me on a growth plan and see where I am in 3 months. They said no. I also told him I’m one of the top performing members on this team, and that I do a lot extra that I don’t HAVE to do. He told me that it wasn’t really his decision (lie… he told my supervisor that he wanted to get me off the team) and that at this time, they can’t afford to have anyone feeling intimidated about calling the team. They said I wasn’t being fired, and that I would be able to re-apply for the team again in the future, as well as any other position in the company. Oh, but here’s a corrective action that prohibits you from applying THIS time (we’re currently looking for mentors). They’re taking my extra $1/hr, and allowing me work my current shift for the rest of the week, and we’ll see about being able to keep my 4 days a week, or I can have an early shift maybe. Then they tell me that this is strictly confidential, that the only person on the team that knows is Stan, because they called him in before me to give him a courtesy head’s up. He actually said to me, "No one has to know. As far as anyone else is concerned, you could say it was a personal decision." Ummm, how about I plan on telling the team what happened?? Like I would really decide to come in today and just randomly ask to step down. Hell no. Go fuck yourselves. I told them that I expect to see about 4 or 5 other people removed from the team as well, since I’m not the only one who has complaints against me. They both looked uncomfortable at that. They told me they understood if I needed to take an early lunch, as this is a lot of information to deal with. It was such corporate nonsense that I wanted to smack them both.

When I walked out of the room, Stan was waiting for me with my purse. He told me to go home and look for another job. I told him I  wasn’t fired, and he said, "I know that. But I would have quit right there if I were you. Go home, look for a job, and we’ll work this out." Then he walked me to my car. I told him that I had wanted to quit, but I need to keep working while I find another job. He told me to take whatever I can find, even if it’s $10 an hour. He said he’ll take care of rent for awhile and we’ll figure it out. He was so fuming mad, I thought he was going to go back and tell our manager off. He said he did tell them that it was BS (in so many words) and that he should have been consulted beforehand. I told him to try to calm down, because we need his job more than we need mine.

So, I called Amy and my mom and vented, and have been texting everyone I can think of to see if anyone’s hiring. I think Angela might have some details for me later, thank God. I’ve also been all over the internet, applying at everything. I’m trying to go higher than $10 an hour, but I’m not being too picky, and I’m applying for things that I wouldn’t normally consider. I’m even going for things in leadership roles, hoping someone will give me a chance.

This is total bullshit. Can I be rude on assist calls? Sometimes. It’s more annoyance than anything, because I take about 30 calls a day, most of which are unwarranted, asking the stupidest questions. I also deal with escalations, and I have to call patients and delay their orders. So yes, I can get a bit snippy from time to time. Or, if they call me with an attitude, I’ve been known to give it right back to them. Could I do better? Yes, and I’ve been trying. So what gives? Actually, I know what gives. That one incident with that crazy (and I mean that literally) guy completely screwed me over. God, I am so freaking angry. And embarassed. How do I go to work and pretend nothing happened? People are going to ask why I’m no longer on the team. And that bastard who sits down from me, the anti-Christ of our company, is going to gloat. Because I KNOW  they talked to him about me, and I KNOW that any time he can do anything to hurt someone on my team, he feels so much better about himself. And my freaking idiot supervisor, who not only doesn’t fight for me, but throws me under the bus and helps this kind of shit along, is no better. She didn’t come in today because she "wasn’t feeling well." Mmmhmm. You knew what was about to happen, and you didn’t want to deal with the shit storm I would have brought down on you. Because I would have been in her cubicle, telling her exactly what I think of her.

*sigh* I’m gonna go find something to eat, and then get back to job hunting. Mother-fucking cock sucking bastards.