New home, same problem

I made it to Illinois.

I can not believe how much this hurts. I can’t put into words the pain I feel every minute of every day. All because I left him. I left something that wasn’t even mine and it still hurts. And to make it worse? He told me today that “since you left…. its hard to explain…. alota things in my life are gone”

It hurts to talk to him, it hurts not to talk to him. when am I gonna get over him??