A Moment

I had a moment last night.

What do I mean by “a moment”? It’s something that happens (for me at least) when I least expect it. It’s almost like a realization about some situation or person.

I had a bad Thanksgiving. My family were flat out mean and rude to me on the phone so I was feeling down. M got back from all his family stuff about 8 and logged onto AIM. I called him and talked for a few minutes. He could tell something was wrong and asked if I wanted to come by. I drove over to his place and split a bottle of wine with him while we bitched about family. By midnight he just looked at me and told me I was staying the night. No biggie, I could crash on the couch and take off in the morning. So we threw in a movie (Rounders) and curled up on the couch to watch. I fell asleep. The first time I woke up M told me to lay down so I would be more comfortable…only to do that I would have to put my head on his lap cuz the couch is a little short. He threw a pillow on his lap and said it was ok. I fell back to sleep and was woken up by him putting a comforter over me. I thought he was going to bed so I started to stretch out….then I noticed the comforter in his hand…for himself. I just looked at him, asking what he was doing. “I’m gonna stay out here with you if that’s ok.” So we settled on the couch, him sitting while I laid down with my head on his lap. After the movie, he turned the tv off and turned on the cd player…DMB of course. We did some things that we probably shouldn’t have done….we knew better. It was almost like we just didn’t care. We finally fell asleep around 6:30 am.

When I woke up, curled up against him with his arms wrapped around me, I had a moment. I care about M, he means a lot to me. He’s one of my best friends and I depend on him…just like he depends on me. Our relationship isn’t typical….far from it really…but it works for us.

I opened my eyes and looked up at him, still sleeping, and smiled. I’m not sure if he woke up on his own or felt me looking at him but he opened his eyes and looked down at me. He mumbled a good morning. We stayed like that another couple hours, watching college football and talking. It was the perfect way to follow a really bad day and he knew that’s what I needed. I love him for it.

{{{Hugz}}}