Bombed.

Okay, so I bombed NoJoMo again…. I didn’t even get to day 2. It shows that I have an "all or nothing" type of personality though. I realized day 2 had passed so I just gave up. Oh well.

Not much is new – Christmas was good, but very quiet. My parents came up for a couple nights and actually stayed mostly sober. They were drinking wine, which I have never seen them do regularly. So I mean, they were still drunk but not annoyingly drunk like usual when they are drinking rye and vodka. Everything went well – my mom was laid off in June, and hasn’t gotten another job yet – she decided not to right away because she never had a summer or a holiday with my stepdad when she didn’t have to work. And he’s retired now, so its actually nice for them and they have enough money to live so there is no big rush. But Christmas was scaled back this year and that was okay with us. We’ve been broke for the last couple months. I think I over-extended myself with my credit card because money isn’t flowing as well as it used to. But, everything is paid, we own our house, and its working out okay. My car (a 2006) decided it needed new front brakes, an ignition coil, and something else I can’t even recall last month. So that was $1700. And then just today it started to overheat, so I dropped it off at the dealership and called it a night. I am pretty sure its either the thermostat or the rad. Either way it’ll be a couple hundred bucks. I should have been a mechanic.

So, I applied for another position and I don’t know if it was the most awesome idea ever. It’s full-time overnights Sunday-Thursday. I would actually have evenings  and weekends off, but would have to work 11pm-7:30am. Its not at my preferred location though and definitely not with my preferred co-workers (but they’re still ok). It’s a bit further away than my current position is… I don’t know. My biggest concern is that I’m exhausted all the time. I did the rotation a couple of years ago and was totally exhausted but it was Saturday-Wednesday (very shitty) and I was also working another part-time job and planning my wedding at the time. So I think it could just be that. I dunno…. my long term goal is to either apply for my MSW (Shannon works at a university here, so I wouldn’t have to pay tuition) and/or get a case coordinator position with Ontario Works (welfare). And since case coordinators are employed by the city and so am I, all I have to do is wait for the magic positing and apply. So we’ll see. I don’t know. 

Shannon and I are pretty sure we will start trying for a baby next January (2014). But there are definitely a few things we want to accomplish first. For one, we are paying down our debt a bit more. And we would like a larger vehicle (my car I mentioned above is a two door – which although cute and sporty, is not very practical). And for goodness sake Shannon needs to get his driver’s license. Before I loose my shit. Seriously. 

Well its after 4:00am and I have to wake up at 8:00am and phone the car dealership. Then I have to work at 3pm. Steve and Amelie are going to drive me to work. I guess I could take a bus, but I’m pretty sure they’re running on a holiday schedule and I’ve only taken the bus like 10 times – and only twice by myself. I hope they can fix my car by 1:30 and I can avoid all that! Wishful thinking though, I think! 

We have nothing planned for new years. I kind of miss the days when I used to make big plans for new years and get absolutely fucked up, but I kind of like doing nothing now too. I have to work til 11:30pm on new years eve, so I guess I’ll just rush home for midnight and then head to bed. I didn’t ask for it off – its just not important anymore.

I have to say, Christmas kinda sucked this year. There are no kids in our family so I think that is a big piece. My cousin Scott and his wife just had a baby girl on December 20th though, so I guess we kind of have a kid in the family now. Her name is Rylee, but I haven’t met her yet. She is the first baby in our family in 25 years! 

Anyway, I guess I should go sleep. 8:00am comes fast. Night!