My Bestie

I avoid bringing people into my drama – especially when I know they’re happy. My best friend is a good example.

She’s super happy right now. She’s transitioning into a new home with her fiance and kids. The last thing she needs is a sappy best friend to bring her mood down.

But… yesterday I couldn’t hold the hurt in, and I started talking to her about it. I felt bad unloading all of this on her, but she did the graceful best friend thing, and she lent me her ear. And she said what all best friends say in moments like this, "You can always talk to me."

I have to admit, I felt much better after talking to her. She reminded me of why I left him to begin with. Then I began getting angry instead of sad.

Even though it hurts like hell that he isn’t around, I have to remember that being there with him, and seeing how uncompromising he was, hurt me just as bad. It’s like looking at someone you love, begging them to build a future with you, and they just shake their head no. No explanation. Just no.

I need to compile a list of what made him and I so incompatible, so I can give it a once over whenever I feel like shit.

The first thing on my list: He would shut down whenever I wanted to talk.

Is it normal to forget all the bad things? All I can think about are the wonderful things that I am going to miss about him.

somerandomguy

June 20, 2013

I know exactly what you mean, too. I actually did the same yesterday with my guy bestie. I have known him for almost 17 years, but lately I have this friendship with my girl bestie, where I can just vent and vent and tell her. But with either bestie that I have, I always hate to vent out about marriage and how much things suck for me. But, in the end, that’s what we are lucky to have ..

.. our besties to remind us that we can talk and let it all out, and that everything will be okay. I think when a person tries to forget the bad things and can only focus on the wonderful things, it just only means how much love and care that they had for the other person. And I’m sure your bestie told you, but that’s his loss. It is definitely going to be really difficult..

.. but in the end, everything will work out for the best. (Even I don’t know what the story is between you and this guy). Just take it one day at a time, and with time and faith, now that there is a guy who will let you talk, who want to love you and beg to bulid a future with you. 🙂 Hang in there. 🙂 Neil

So, I read all 3 entries, and though I just know the baseline of what is going on with you.. I just wanted to say that I am definitely going to come and read you everyday. You seem to me like a very soft hearted girl, and I think with time, things will work out for the best. I know that line is sooooooooooo cliche, but hopefully writing and letting out ..

.. your heart and your mind, the rest will be okay with time. 🙂 And that’s all we can hope, Carrie (read the previous note!) I hope your day was okay and just know at least if it means or doesn’t mean anything, you got a new reader in me, whose hoping for better and sunnier days for you. 🙂 Neil

June 24, 2013

RYN: As long as you don’t nickname me, Mr. Big, I’m completely fine with it, kid. 😉 It is really funny cause I was just thinking about you, and hoping that you had a better weekend. So seeing your note, at least I am happy about that. 🙂 Hope you are having a great and fantastic day, Carrie! 🙂 P.S: I love Carrie and all, but always been a Charlotte fan. 😉