watching

watching
greener pastures
sprouting beneath their feet
and wondering if its just me
stagnant

[9:15 AM]
Maybe it really is just me, when you look at the whole thing.

I’ve been in my current job for about four and a half years, which feels very much like a record for me (since I really don’t count my teaching-aide job back in high school as a longer job as it was part-time). I’ve been with my firm since January of 2002, joining as the sixth employee and watching the company grow into the twenties… pretty good for a small software-contractor firm, right?

Yesterday was a luncheon for one of our coworkers who is leaving, one of the system administrators who is moving on to a position with the government. This happens at any firm now and again – I think the last “retirement” luncheon was several months ago at the very least – but at our company, it’s rare. And then, this morning soon after my arrival, I got an email that another administrator is leaving.

Now, part of me wonders sometimes if it’s just my nature to want to stay where I’m at so that I have some kind of stability in my life, and part of me just wonders if something’s going on in the administrators’ group that’s causing folks to look for employment elsewhere. It’s just very odd, and there’s really no other word for it that I can come up with easily.

But still, there is a part of me that’s wondering why I’ve stuck around so long, and contentedly so, when everyone else seems to be looking for the next great job…