Ex-Boyfriend

My ex-boyfriend called me last week and we went to lunch. To tell the truth, I was thinking about him also. It hit me that it was my first Christmas without him in 2 years and that made me sad. Anyhow, he called me out of the blue and asked me out to lunch. We went to a Chinese restaurant and ate and when we got our fortunes his said, “Now is the time to take a chance,” and mine said something about, “many great opportunities.” I’m curious about a reconciliation between us. I’ve never been in love and I don’t even know if I love him or not, but it doesn’t seem right.

He’s 10 years older than me and a different nationality, but that doesn’t really matter. One of the main reasons we broke up was that I was unhappy. I felt like I was dating my dad. GROSS!!! We’d go for drives up the coast and stop for dinner and just go home. I’ve never slept with him because I don’t think I’m ready and he doesn’t pressure me either which I really appreciated it. What really bothered me and my parents was that he never met them. He dated me for over 2 years and he’s never been in our house and even said hello. That raised suspecions for my mom, she didn’t really feel comfortable with me being with someone she’s never met, ever.  I’ve told him that he doesn’t even have to stay because they’re not going to interegate him, but he never does. He’ll drop me off and drive off before I even make it up to the drive way. I’ve met people in Vegas that they have met before and like I said, it’s not some 4 hour questioning under a halogen lamp with him in the corner and them with legal pads and pens.

After lunch, we just made out in his car and he told me that he loves me, I told him that I love him too although I really don’t know. We broke up last year Valentines day right before he was going to propose (a girl just knows.) I just don’t know I have it in me to do it again. I definately missed him, but I did not miss the arguing and the fighting. I can be way too dramatic for my own good. I think arguments are healthy for a relationship, but he wanted to always break up, which we never did. I’m just so confused. Is it wise to want to be with him again? When we are together I wonder if I’m missing out on something better.