should I send it

what do I do to get you out of my head? There never seems to be enough time for us, but we dont really have an us yet.  Promises made, but what do they mean?  I want to be happy, but how can I with you so far away?  At the same time, I wonder if we really have a future?  I am so unsure of what to expect from you, I want promises, but I cant ask.  The first thing you made me agree to was not to get between you and your kids… and thats hard for me.  if you asked I would be there in a second (or at least as soon as reasonable with a 20month old in tow).  I guess I want the same sort of commitment from you, but am afraid to ask… I am terrified that you dont feel the same about me that feel about you.  I guess it comes down to what do you want hun?  Not what can really happen, but what do you want, start with the dreams and then make them work.  I’ll help, at least if you want me to, but let me know there is hope, that there is something worth fighting for here.  Cause its been a bad few weeks and I’m scared, not of us, but that I have fallen too fast and I dont know what you want.  I guess I am not a good girlfriend on the side, I am too demanding and want you all to myself.  I’m tearing myself apart over you and I dont know what to do to stop it.  I cant sleep with bryan here because of wierdness, and I cant sleep when he is gone for thinking of you… melodramatic? maybe, but its honestly what is happening.  I guess it comes down to what do you want? I know what I want, but am scared that you dont want the same things.