I hate insomnia

Yeah, tired for 2 hours to fall asleep before giving up.  Now I am just trying to hold on till I can get bryan up to take care of soren.  Then I can go to bed and sleep for several hours.  I really wanted to get stuff done today, but I dont think thats gonna really happen.  I want to be able to sleep tonight, so I think I will have bry wake me up at a decent hour so i can still sleep tonight.  I think I am babbling, so maybe I should give up.   I dont know though, its very train of thoughish and is making it easy to do a brain dump.  Maybe if I could figure out what my major stressor is at the moment, I could actually sleep easier.   Well… I know what most of my issue is, but I just dont know how to get comfortable sleeping with bryan.  I guess thats what it comes down to… how do you sleep with someone you dont trust and are slightly afraid of? badly, at least for me. Gonna stop here cause yeah, babbling