all there is to see

i remember the first time i saw the pacific ocean a paper thin sheet of water over another sheet over another one a little filodoughlike and i looked through the layers of doughlike and i couldn’t see the bottom one but i could hear it rumble under the weight of all the other layers it’s really dark at the lower dougher layer and it’s so dense it’s not really wet anymore the water molecules are pressed together so tight there’s no room for actual wetness it’s not even damp down there it’s just really quiet and every time a dolphin is spit out of the water and slams back in you feel the weight shift on your back and the titanic destroyers and aircraft carriers and oil rigs are no more than a tiny speck of a vibration they don’t really belong here anyway they’re hydrophobic and you can tell how nauseous they are becoming it’s not nearly their home but then the huge icebergs melting and chunks of ice and snow slip into the water and they hurt like hell and they float on your skin like rashes until the rash goes away it takes months sometimes centuries but that’s ok because

i got time.

i wait.

it’s what i do.

and the earth is hot and damp underneath my feet and not too solid either and i have to shift my weight so i won’t lose footing earth is made of plasticine and there are little holes you can peek through and see it burning and burning away and the rotors and wheels and cogs and things turning and turning until the engine is shot and earth expires we don’t have a warranty on it so we had better have enough money saved up for a new one or a slightly used one instead or maybe we should lease?

but there i was looking at the ocean from the inside out until i felt someone pull me out of the water and i was sitting on a rock and the tide was in and the rock was just a pebble in the ocean and there was no turning back anymore