And Then I Found a Lump on my Baby

MissMeg

September 24, 2013

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And Then I Found a Lump on my Baby

I know I said I wanted something to change… I didn’t mean it like this…

I was playing with Jasper today, holding him underneath his armpits when I noticed this weird bump on his chest. Kind of above his nipple but below his neck. I pulled his shirt up and further inspected it. It was like a firm mass that I could also move it around underneath his skin. I asked a fellow Mom’s group I run on Facebook and a few of them thought maybe it was just a swollen lymph node or gland from him being a little bit sick the past few days.

I immediately called the clinic and they were able to get him in this afternoon to take a closer look.

They also measured it and it was 4 cm.

The physician’s assistant was a bit baffled by it–she ruled out the swollen gland issue. She wondered aloud a few things… it could be scar tissue? Did he bump himself on something? (Nothing that I could recall.. I would guess if he had bumped himself that hard there would be a bruise. There was a slight barely visible discoloration we could see but not the kind of bruise that would make that kind of scar tissue I thought.) Nobody said the "C" word, but of course that’s what this mama’s freaked-out-paranoid mind went immediately to.

She went and got the main doctor (we have a small clinic in our hometown) and he came over to take a look too. I started to freak out when he didn’t have an answer. Like, I kept waiting for him to say, "Oh this is just a blah-blah-blah, I’ve seen it on babies all the time and they get it from blah blah…" Instead, he furrowed his brow and said, "I’m not sure what exactly this is, I think we’ll have an ultrasound done on it, possibly a biopsy once we know a bit more about it."

BIOPSY.

Did he just say BIOPSY?

I wanted to throw up. There is no way you can not start thinking the worst when you find a LUMP on your BABY and the doctor says biopsy.

It could be nothing, of course… but it’s more than just "nothing" right now to me, because two medically trained professionals had no answers for me today. And that scares the absolute shit out of me.

I’m trying to remain calm. I’m trying to breathe. For now, nothing else matters and now I get to freak out and worry until the ultrasound tomorrow morning, and then freak out until we hear the results… and perhaps we have to wait even longer or see a specialist in the big city.

And of course Jasper took his first "real" steps today and is the happiest most content and sweet smiley baby as ever, completely oblivious to everything. It doesn’t seem to hurt him or bother him.

I’ll be praying constantly and if you guys wouldn’t mind sending a few prayers my way that would be awesome.

I’m just one worried mama and tonight is going to be a long night.. 🙁

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Meg, I am so sorry that this has happened, but know that you are one seriously amazing momma. So glad you found it, took him to the doctor and take everyday at a time. And, keep us updated!!

& The Struggles

September 25, 2013

Random noter – Praying for you and your family. I hope everything turns out okay.

Sending love & magic & light, sweets! Don’t worry; just love ♥

nowthat'salady

I hate reading this. How scary. I am glad they are getting you in so quickly for the ultrasound. Try not to google. *hugs*

monkeygal027

sallyd0117

Crazytxbabe

Jasper & you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Keeping you in my thoughts, hopefully its just a cyst!

I will be praying.

So many prayers coming your way!

perfectly.imperfect

🙁 This is so sad to read. I hate to read of poor, innocent babies with potential problems. My friend’s 11 month old has been waiting for a new heart for 6 months:( Jasper will be ok!

All of you are in my thoughts. I hope everything turns out. Thank goodness you were aware enough to notice a change and took him into get checked out. xxx

Saturnine

LeftisRight

Is his skin discolored? Does it hurt him? I don’t know much about peds (other than their brains).

In Jesus’ name, praying for healing and peace!

Luna_Bella

My gut instinct says it’s likely a cyst and only because I have a few of those. Regardless, I will be praying for sweet little Jasper until you update with good news!

Prayers

Oh Megan, I will definitely send good thoughts.

Mrs.K-T

Did he mention the possibility of it being a cyst? a fat cyst perhaps? I’m praying for your little boy. I cant imagine what you’re going through right now.

tater bug

Sending you well wishes!

Oh Megan, I’m so sorry. I am hoping and praying it is nothing and little Jasper is okay. He WILL be okay. Love and prayers and good thoughts to all of you.

paper/pen

my thoughts will be with you and your family..i hope everything is okay, meg

Oh no. Sending good thoughts your way, lady.

Thinking of you, Megan. xoxoxo.

Breathing Life In

Praying for you, sweetness!

MyLife_LessOrdinary

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Anxious

Certainly praying for you and your precious baby….

EternalOptimist

Praying… And sending lots of positivity your way. <3

Keeping little Jasper and his sweet mama in my thoughts & prayers! Keep reminding yourself it is most likely nothing major, but I know that doesn’t keep you from fearing the worst.

Praying!

thinking of you. xx

.Hopeful.

Sending you and Jasper good thoughts and well wishes.

Oh you poor poor thing – I can only imagine the worry and the pain in your heart right now. Thinking of you and Jasper and praying for you both – I am sure it is nothing, but right now that doesn’t help xxx

JudgeDanny

SilverBlue

September 26, 2013

Thinking of you xxx

NovaKay

I will keep you in my thoughts. Sending positive energy your way! x

~jillybean~

here if you need me – text, call, IM – let me know….

Taharial

That’s super scary I will be praying hard for you.

wintergrey

Keeping you and Jasper in my thoughts. Hugs,

Hugs to you. Hopefully it is just a cyst.

Lys_Messi

Oh Megan reading this freaked me right out, BUT remember… you saw the bump and it is now being looked at by the doctor. They will do everything they can to find out what it is… Thinking of you and Jasper with lots of prayers <3

raeven

Thoughts and prayers are with you.. We had a cancer scare with our son several years back and it so incredibly terrifying… I wouldn’t wish the fear and terror on my worst enemy.

This must be terrifying. I don’t know a mother alive who would not be terrified. But it quite possibly is nothing and if it something, then they are going to workon it straight away. Sending you huge hugs and hoping you can calm your insides.

Oh honey. I was a little behind on this. I’m thinking of you guys. Huge hugs.

Asillia Magdalene

September 27, 2013

🙁 I am so sorry. Glad you are getting it taken care of – I hope it just turns out to be a cyst or something like that!

colige_grajuit

September 30, 2013

thinking good thoughts,