Hapless..

I have a headache. Makes writing/reading less fun and fruitful. I feel like taking a nap but tonight is tumbling classes for the boys. They wouldn’t miss class for anything short of a tornado!

I spent the morning stripping beds and doing a basic clean-up of the house. I saw my internist who sat across from me and smiled and nodded awkwardly as she does. The only thing to come out of my ten minute visit with her is that I more or less idly decided to try the metformin again for more/better weight loss.  I was mildly surprised when the receptionist said she (the doc) wanted to see me in 6 months again.

I went to Panera for chicken soup and half one of their sandwiches afterward. I read some of the Kate Mortensen book. Really, I was a bit upset. My young sitter told me she is pregnant. She’s 21, has no education short of a couple of classes at the junior collage. She hasn’t even been properly dating the "father". She’s been "talking" to him for a few weeks…which obviously means they’ve been doing more than talking but less than anything else that might resemble a relationship. I’m sorely disappointed with her.  Her younger sister just had a baby a few weeks ago so perhaps my sitter was feeling left out…but it’s another thing entirely to allow herself to get pregnant purposefully or otherwise. She will now put her own health at risk (she’s a type 1 diabetic), her future at risk, an innocent child’s  future at risk, and put undue stress on her parents who are already supporting one "kid with a kid".

Ergh. And I am of course thinking of myself. It means I’m going to lose a damn good sitter. One the boys care a great deal for. Her "lack of getting a life" worked great for MY situation and I even felt/feel a bit guilty from time to time for taking advantage of her lack of direction for my own gain. But now…She needs to do SOMETHING and IMMEDIATELY. Which will mean she won’t be watching my boys much longer. She cannot. 

*sigh* Life changes again..I’ve been so boastful about having her as a sitter. Now in a few short months I will have to search for another one. I wonder if I will be as lucky again. I just cannot fathom a young person with no education, no prospects, not even a committed partner getting purposefully pregnant..just because she had nothing else better to do. And that is how it seems.

Two days of work this week and then we are off on a mini break. We’re taking the boys to Holland, Michigan for the tulip/Dutch festival. I’m sure we’ll have a grand time.