Talk Therapy

One of my noters asked me about this new talk therapy person I am going to. Her name is Judy and although she isn’t as old as me {there are times when I feel NO-ONE is as old as I am!} she is an older woman and I feel comfortable with her. Actually, I would have made an effort with a younger person because I am quite aware that what I get out of this program depends a great deal on what I put into it.

Anyway, one of the things I wanted to bring up was how guilty I felt over the times I wasn’t as kind to Fred as I could have been. One of the helpful things she helped me realize was that these times were actually few and far between. Mostly I was kind and wanted him to be as comfortable as he could be. One thing she pointed out was that despite all my efforts, I could not make things better and as well as the stress I was under, this feeling of frustration because I couldn’t make everything better most likely had a lot to do with the way I behaved. Not that is a valid excuse but it IS something I hadn’t thought about.

Anyway, she suggested I write a private diary about these times with the intention of putting them behind me and not the intention of dwelling on them. So, I did. I changed it a bit and it really helped me. I am not going to write about it here until later because I am seeing Judy tomorrow and I want to talk to her about it first. I may disclose details later.

But talking to her and doing this writing has made me feel a lot better and a small amount of energy seems to creeping back into my life. AND, I am getting excited about going to NC and seeing my son and his house. I am also planning to meet OD diarist VeronicaCorningstone {whom I have met before} and her dog, Merlin who I know a lot about but have never met!

Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary. The people we trust with that important talk can help us know that we are not alone. ~Fred Rogers (Mr. Rogers)

You are not happy because you are well. You are well because you are

happy. You are not depressed because trouble has come to you, but

trouble has come to you because you are depressed. You can change

your thoughts and feelings, and then the outer things will come to

correspond, and indeed there is no other way of working.

— Emmet Fox