Evening Entry

I came home from school with my hip hurting, lay on the bed with my book and two hours later, woke up! I must have been really tired because I slept through a call from one of Fred’s daughters. Fred didn’t hear the phone because he was in the kitchen {and probably had earphones in his ears } but the phone is in my workroom which is right next to the bedroom and the doors of both rooms were open! Anyway, I told Fred there was a message and he said he would call back later, but didn’t have to do so because she called about 30 minutes ago.
School today was Ok. La prof was working on the conferences and we were doing various things. Marty, Susannah and Jessica were sitting together chatting in Italian. All three of them have been to Italy and I have to say I felt a pang of jealousy when I heard them and realized I couldn’t join in. Isn’t that strange? It took me quite a while to track down what I was really feeling because at first it was definitely anger which seemed to me to be an inappropriate feeling for the situation. They weren’t being loud and they weren’t disturbing me so why was I so angry? It is very difficult for me to not be in the top student group. I am both surprised and appalled at how difficult I am finding dealing with these feelings. but, as I tell myself often, I am NOT giving up. I have stopped when new things got difficult too many times in my life. Time to break that habit.

"Being defeated is often only a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent."
Marilyn vos Savant 1946-
Homework List: {Due Thursday}

grammar {Oh! I just checked! There is NO grammar assignment! Wow! {faints} }
some assigned pages to read in Pasta per due
prepare one minute talk in Italian on subject of our own choice. I am thinking I will talk about Lucca.

Ok, I am off to play with my Mac some more and try copying the "Canzoni per bambini" cds for la prof.

We have just had supper–some great beef Fred cooked in beer! It was fall-off-the-fork tender…

QUOTATIONS: Courage does not always roar. Sometimes, it is the quiet voice at the

end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow".

– – Mary Anne Radmacher-Hershey

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Ci vedo dopo…. see you later…

Little Liz

March 15, 2007

I struggled with similar feelings when I started my Master’s courses. I remember coming home crying to which Justice would just console me and try to build me up so I could continue. But it was hard to work through at first!

I like that quotation. I should heed it as I give up too easily, I think. I understand that having feelings that you don’t like having. I dealt with something like that this week and wrote an entry about it then deleted it. For me it wasn’t envy but anger and feeling put-upon, but I wound up deciding that I was probably being touchy. Still, some of those feelings linger even though rationally, I know I shouldn’t feel that way. It’s so confusing.:(

Your a closet control freak, too, huh? Thanks for your notes, BTW…coming from a teacher they’re always appreciated. P.S. Never pay attention to my spelling and punctuation..okay? Okay. LOL!

Pat

I think your feelings are normal because it is very frustrating to see someone else doing what you wish to do and cannot do yet. You are going to be just as proficient, if not more so, after your visit to Italy in a short while!

Shi

Desert Sage

Hugs,

Thank you so much for all your supportive notes this past week. They mean so much from you. (((HUG)))

ShadowWolfe

All Cats Rule

its normal for us ‘ACOA’s’ to feel this way when we’re not at the top of the class. I feel the same way and I’m surprised when I discover that i feel that way. Yes, time to break that habit.

TheWoodsprite

I think I’d have gotten a little perturbed at them too… at feeling left out maybe? Enough to sashay up to them and say (in English) something like “Well is THIS the exCLUsive Italian-speaking clique, or is ANYone invited????” :o) !! I used to need to not only BE the best, but also to receive heaps of praise and recognition for being the best. That, in fact, is why I stalked away from the ASW years ago. In the years since, I found I missed it so much….that now I realize that simply DOING things….simply being a PART of things….is what matters, not being the best. hugs, Weesprite

Ginger Rogers

March 16, 2007

Are you going to Italy alone or on a tour?

Vermonter57

How about this approach – Go up to the group and say (in Italian) “Excuse me but would you mind if I join your conversation? I need to practice to prepare for my upcoming trip to Italy.” How could they refuse?

It seems like an eternity since I have read you. I love both the quotes you put on this page. How right you are. Just think though – this time next year you will have been in Italy and you will return able to lead a conversation. Perhaps you could see them as being something to aspire to. I understand your jealousy though and think it is brave of you to see it for what it is and admit to it.:-)

Beef covered in beer! Interesting.