Wandering Thoughts
There are times–like this morning–when I feel I am wasting what is left of my life. It is not that I am not content with my life. I am and that, I am thinking, is exactly the problem. How on earth can I be content when I do nothing? I get up, I go for walks, I read, I do a little, cleaning, washing, breadmaking—what a BORING life to read about! AHA! And as I wrote that, I see what the problem is. I am not bored but I fear those who read me may be? What a silly thing to be concerned about!
As long as I can remember I have been using writing to sort out my thoughts. Words on paper have always come easily to me. When I was a child, I used to feel a little guilty because writing came so easily. When I was in school, the majority of what we did was what is now called “essay-type” questions. I am good at this. I do a lot of “pre-writing’ in my head and learned when I was writing to a time limit that it was essential that I sat and calmly thougt about what I was going to do for a part of the assigned time.Then I could write my already organized thoughts in the rest of the time.
Reading back over this, I am amused to see I used the word “guilty” about my feelings that I could do this. Why on earth would I feel guilty about what is obviously a useful talent? I do remember when I convinced myself that having butterflies in my stomach at test times was an asset. I felt that it sharpened my ability to do well just a little bit. Which reminds me of something Robin said the other day. I was commenting on the fact that she preferred to write an outline first and then the essay. {Contrary to what your English teacher may have taught you, apparently research has shown that most people prefer to write the essay first and then make the outline to please their teacher!} Anyway, she said she has become like this since her traumatic brain injury and that she felt that was something good that came out of the accident. Maybe I will suggest this to her as the subject of an essay ? {I am finding this an interesting subject , thinking of traumatic episodes in my life and mentally listing what good came out of them!}
This is very much a wandering-around piece of writing. I don’t do enough of this, I think. it is a good way to clear my mind. On with the day:
- drink my coffee
- wash the dishes and clean up the kitchen
- go fo a walk
- tutor Robin this afternoon {postponed from yesterday. She had a good excuse!}
- go to the library. I have only one book –the one I am reading–and I like to know there is at least one more waiting. {I could also check at the library if the catalog of summer classes at the community college is there.}
- start an oil pastel piece of work {I have a mental picture of what I want to do}
Until later…
Are you really 70 years old? And I’m not asking in a manner which is condescending, but merely asking because I dont find folk your age round these parts. I enjoy elderly and what thoughts and words they contribute to me. — Mark
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Gee, you feel this way too sometimes? So do I! On the bad days. On the good ones, I know my life is a good one and my activities, fulfilling and worthwhile. These are the days I prefer! Personally (though I am having a “bad day” today), I think both of us lead perfect lives. That is why we both are usually content. Our lives are good, and our pastimes, very fulfilling. hugs, Weesprite
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I can’t imagine anything wrong with being beautifully content with your life. Simplicity is dreadfully underrated. xxx
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You shouldn’t ever think that you are wasting your life. You are content in your life and to me that is one of the best things that a person could ever have. You do great , you get around , walking every day , you read all the time. You do so much , I dont think that your life is at all boring.
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I think we all think this way at times. I think your a very active life. Best Wishes
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I dont think your life is boring at all. You get out alot, you participate in classes, and you tutor. How could you get bored with all that going on? I enjoy reading about your day to day life.
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Your really talented. I don’t think your life is boring. I kind of like hanging around the house, and reading is a passion. I am reading about hypnosis. I am curious about it. I do this, get curious about a subject and read some on it and then can answer some silly game question. MIL thinks I am smart, but I am only nosey. I know my grandfather tried hypnosis on me to get me to go to sleep
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it worked. My grandfather was a psychology professor. I think your facinating. I love to read about your life and writing. I hope you have a great Tuesday. It is to be in the 80’s down here. I can’t believe that it will be that warm. Blessings.
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ryn: THANKS, Patrisha. Your words mean more to me than most. Oh, you can bet I’m not going to pay the lawyer ’til I know things are done. As for Joey, yes. You are right. I can often come out sounding very hard, but I’m really not. In fact, I once was a lot “harder” than I am now, and I kinda wish I had some of that back. But you are right, and whatever has to be done will get done. hugs,
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Well, I don’t think your goal here at OD is to entertain the masses … hell, who wants that? Of course, I often wish I had more interesting entries, but my purpose in coming to OD to begin with was to have a place to put my thoughts and feelings. The readers and notes I get are so appreciated. Boring? Nah. You, my dear, are living life.
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One thing I love about your writing is the ebb and flow of your life. You have predictable tides, but based on the cycle of the moon, forces of nature and outside influences, your tides change. Your life is anything but boring to me. Sometimes we feel because others read what we write, we need to be clever. I try to just write my thoughts like I was talking to my best friend, someone I don’t
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have to censor my thoughts with. I think too, a chronicle of our days brings some degree of satisfaction. I still would love you to write an entry about your favorite books!
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I think we all do that at times. Usually though most my think my life was boring, I am enjoying it, so isn’t that what counts in the end?
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I don’t think you’re wasting your life at all. You do so much for other people – and your own contentment is a good thing, too, because it inspires others.
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I hope for a day when I am happily content.
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ryn: oh yes, I can believe it alright! One thing I’ll say for both my kids; they might flub up at times, but they never have blamed it on anyone else. Joey doesn’t. He doesn’t try to make excuses either. But then…he won’t just “buck up.” Darn it is frustrating. Thanks again, and hugs, and wishing you a good day, Weesprite
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If you’re happy in your life then it’s not boring 🙂 Besides, I find it nice to read about normal people leading normal happy homelike lives – it makes me feel warm inside 🙂 (huggles)
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Boring? No. I am envious of many of the things you do! I would never be jealous of boring things!!! And you DO have a wonderful cohesive way of writing – nothing to feel guilty about, but rather proud of!
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*huggs*
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no, you don’t need to think that you’re boring! You’re not that at all. Just because you don’t have DRAMA in your life doesn’t mean its boring!
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I think you’ve (and are) doing a great deal with your life! the mentoring alone is a grand thing, and something I wish more people would do. So please don’t grind yourself down, you are a great inspiration whether you’re aware of it or not, and certainly to me.
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sometimes, i feel like i’m wasting my life by not working and i wonder what my contribution to the rest of humanity will be when i’m gone. but, then i think about blake and i’m okay again. take care,
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I can hardly wait until my life is as boring as yours. LOL! I always think that my entries are boring to everyone. And I sometimes wonder why they keep me on their favorites list. I’m surely as mundane as they come. 🙂
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Your diary is always the first one I open on my favorites list. I find it great that you come here and write about your life at your age. I am sick of the young 12-17 year olds writing about who they love this week. I only have older (over 35) on my favorites. You write very nice and I enjoy your entries. I am sure I would enjoy your European accent too. If you still have one.
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I wish I could write and speak better. they kind of go hand in hand. I hated english in school so didn’t pay attention and now i am paying the price. I would love to sit down and write something that made some kind of sense instead of jumping from one idea to another and having it all jumbled up. My kids do very well in english and even speak well. they must have gotten it from their dad.
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I don’t think you’re boring! I think you’re the bomb! I can only hope I’m doing as well as you are when I reach 70! You’re active, you keep your brain working, and most of all, you contribute! Nothing wrong with any of that! Love ya! ~M
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If you were boring, you wouldn’t have so many fans now, would you? There’s the proof. Keep doing what you do. You do it well.
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you are much to productive and busy to be considered boring. I can only hope that I’m that productive when I’m your age. 🙂
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Ryn: I’m glad that you liked it 🙂
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And here I was admiring the sorts of things you do 😕
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Your life is not boring. Nope!
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