Patrisha

December 29, 2004

Thursday Early

Below is most of my entry this morning for the somekindofacircle diary. I think it important enough to me to post it here, too.

ADDENDUM TO THIS: Lor’ I am slow on the uptake! I have only just discovered that the treadmill timer STOPS counting the time when I stop to drink water or take a breather! So, when it says I have walked 15 minutes {as it did this morning} this means I have REALLY walked 15 minutes! {shakes head at self}

What I have to do for myself is to start making walking a priority. I cannot do more than 15 to 20 minutes at a time on the treadmill but I CAN do that twice a day. If you are wondering why I am not going out, first, we are having really horrid weather and secondly, although Fred is much better, I am not comfortable in leaving him for long periods of time. There are times when I HAVE to leave the house when we need groceries {and I think maybe I have mentioned a time or two how much I HATE grocery buying ? LOL} and the times when I have to leave Fred alone should be reserved for that necessary evil at this time.

For this week {which starts today for me} I am back to writing down everything that goes into my mouth along with the calorie total. I have been aware that I have been eating more and as long as the morning weigh-in has been at 160, I have felt ok with that. But in the last couple of weeks the eating has gone up and the walking has gone down. And what has happened is that the needle on the scales at the morning weigh-in is moving slightly to the right! {Please insert agonized scream in here! LOL}

I am not beating myself up over this. If you are a regular reader, you will know I have been under a lot of stress in the past two weeks, and when I am under stress, I eat bread. Home-made hot, yummy bread at 130 calories a slice! Now, this would be no problem if I took this as my meal, but I have been eating my normal meals too. The bread has become a drug to allieviate the anxiety. {It has been home-made bread because Fred has requested this and his appetite needs a little coaxing. But if I hadn’t been eating home-made bread, it would be store-bought bread. } So, a week of eating normally but being aware of everything that goes into my mouth can only be a Good Thing.

And doing the treadmill twice a day has to be an Excellent Thing. I have three rented DVDs coming from Netflix and the Star Wars movies coming from Amazon so I will have something interesting to watch while I am tread-milling. Television is mostly a vast wasteland these days. Oh, and treadmilling means I am drinking a lot of water which is also a Good Thing for a person with only one kidney!

I feel SO much better when I have a plan. I did some outside walking yesterday and also the treadmill so I know I can do this.

Until later…

Ginger Rogers

December 30, 2004

Of course you can but you have a lot of stress now. Be gentle with yourself.

I appreciate the “stress eating,” I do a lot of that. I guess I need A Plan.

Shi

Having a plan makes one feel at least that they have some control. Seems much of your life lately hasn’t been in your control. Good luck with your plan.

Newsnut

Patrisha, all things considered, you are doing amazing. You have no reason to beat yourself up, and I’m glad you’re going to make your walking a priority

momof2boys2

I have gotten bored also of the tread mill. Fortunely I am walking alot at work and so that has been my walking for a while. Yesterday I walked 7.05 miles over 15,000 steps. I have found in the past that reading, or listening to music helps the time fly by faster. Good luck you are really keeping on top of things and you are very concious of yourself that is a good thing.

zhnee

Sending a great smile. Having a plan can only be a good thing.

gray tabby

it’s good to get back into a habit of walking and watching what you eat. i wish i had a treadmill so i could walk indoors in the winter and the summer. but, i don’t so will have to use the machines i do have. i love bread, too. i find i eat it when i’m bored. gotta stop that. a week of structure will help you tremendously. good luck. take care,

Chipparoo

I can so relate to the bread habit. It’s (one of) my biggest problems too. I hope that the stress level for you will begin to lessen very soon.

all exercise is off for now till my foot is okay. Naturally I want to get started on my walking and dieting again but the walking will have to wait a bit.

Redsirens

Don’t beat yourself up over this , you have been under a lot of stress lately. ((hugs))

All Cats Rule

Yes you are under a LOT of stress. You’re doing very well with it though.

Galaga

Shoot, when I get stressed I lose my appetite. That’s bad, because I get constipated easily.

bipolar_borderline

You look so good. I can’t believe how much weight you lost. As you age, your metabolism slows down so you have to practically starve yourself to stay at the same weight. I don’t know how you managed to lose weight

LightButHearty

I have to have a plan too…even if I end up ignoring it for long periods of time.

Dangnabbit

Sunshine today with clear sidewalks. Hope you can enjoy them.

Aloneforever

I think Fred will be in seventh heaven the first time he’s able to do the grocery shopping. I have the feeling you won’t be too upset about it either. :o) Happy New Year, Patricia frank

Mezzo

Cut yourself a little slack, will ya? It’s been a tough journey, and you did what you had to do to get through it!!!! Things will get back to normal, and you’ll be FINE! Happy New Year! Love you! ~M

~Slappy~

Yes, the stuff on television is quite lacking. We mostly watch DVDs around here. I haven’t had cable in a year and half because I felt that I was paying for a bunch of garbage. The kids want it, but I dunno. Anyway, take care of you, keep drinking the water, work that treadmill and be good to yourself.

greeneyes&sunflowers

OK you have an excuse, I do not. *bastards* Then why are my pants getting tight around the waist again???? *AAAAAUUUUUGGGGHHHHH* *sigh* & *huggs*

RYN: I DO have my own computer…unfortunately Elmer uses it. He needs HIS own computer.

SomeKindOfACircle

December 31, 2004

Yes, you have been under a tremendous amount of stress, over the past few weeks — and are “carrying it” beautifully! Love, Anna

RosieLyn

Bread is one of my big downfalls aside from Christmas chocolate binging. Why does bread have to smell and taste so darn good and give us such comfort?? Why I say, why? I am finding the weight I lost over the summer. No plan for that but will need to have one to lose again.

I am now all caught up with you. I’m so glad Fred is doing better. I won’t talk about what my scaled did over Christmas. but I’m going to bring them on down.

Cassandra

I need a plan too. Actually I have one, but I’m not going to write it in stone or put it in action until after Sunday, with is my Annual Day of Turning Older, and it would be too hard to resist with only a few days into The Plan. So The Plan will officially open The Official End of the Holidays. Glad to hear Fred is doing well, and you too. The best of the new year to you both.