What I Have Done Today

I have scratched mosquito bite…a big mistake

I have watched a lot of British “so-called comedy” on tv. Sometimes things like “Are You Being Served” make me writhe with embarrassment and want to apologize for my country. But then, there is alswys Masterpiece Theater…

Actually, it would be better and easier to list what I haven’t done today.

I haven’t showered, or cooked, or changed out of my robe, or looked for the paperwork for my green card. or ridden my bicycle. or swum, or drunk any orange juice…

I have been really down lately and, yes, I know why. I will get over it or I won’t get over it. If I don’t get over it, I will move back to Mississippi and be near my kids.

I have a friend on whom I could always call, When I moved in with my partner, my friend disconnected himself from me bacause he felt that I didn’t need help any more. I would love to talk to him tonight, though. The problem is I know what he would advise. He would say that if my partner knows how I feel, how hurt I am. and still refuses to do anything about it, then why am I staying with him? It is not as if we are married. And that is another sore point. How come he and Nancy were talking about getting married but he and I are not… My fault, I guess. I have always made a big thing about how I never want to marry again, and so I wasn’t asked. And as things are now, if I was asked I would be ambivalent about my answer…yes, no, yes, no….

I have taken two benadryl for the mosquito bites and a Klonopin for the RLS and I should be feeling sleepy pretty soon.

Tomorrow I WILL ride my bike. If I have the time I will do it before Coronation Sterrt {my one tv vice}. If not, afterwards. It is my partner’s birthday and I am doing nothing more than taking him out to dinner. He still has the unused massage certificate and the amazon book certificate I gave him for last Christmas so why bother?

Time to go and read my way to sleep…

Goodnight, world…

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September 21, 2002

Moving away from your children must have been difficult. No wonder you seem lonely.

You mention Masterpiece Theatre. Didn’t I hear that Alistair Cook passed away a few days ago? I heard it from the next room, and missed part, but I think the news anchor said that the programme went on for 58 years. Pretty amazing!