Finish it off

Since it’s midnight, I told myself that I will not think of Beth or anything of that nature after midnight and this is the last entry about what happened today.

Lexi and misguided rose hoped that Beth’s relationship with Vlad would crumble. I strongly disagree because I do not wish anything bad to happen to her. Also, I hope that she knows I did what I did to find out the truth.

I would have to disagree with what she said in her note about how I was too coinceited to admit to her point. The reason why I was agitated had to deal with the fact that she could have told me at the time to not ask personal questions. For this reason, I have to monitor what I say/ask/act around others. This may mean I will revert back to the way I was when I was in 6th grade: being shy and not talkative.

Basically, when I’m at home, I’m silent as a rock. Growing up, I didn’t have anyone to play with so I often had to play by myself. I would usually throw a football and catch it and pretend to be in some big football game. Sometimes, I would bat rocks and pretend that I won the World Series or something.

When I went to school, I was a totally different person. I spent time talking to people and being more animated. It looks like I will have to go back to that mode.

I was thinking back about my decision to post part of the conversation and go through what I did in the first place. I would have done it all again because I finally discovered the truth. She wrote in her diary that you shouldn’t give out your information on the internet. That is true, but that is also true for real life.

Think about it.

One time, I gave my number to this girl I thought was my friend. Instead, she used it to give it to her friend so her b/f could get on to me (this was a long time ago). You can give out your personal info offline and it could still come to haunt you. So either offline or online, you have to be careful who and how much info you give about yourself.

If Beth is reading this, I want her to know this.

Beth, I wish you had told me ahead of time that I was scaring you. I’m a sensitive person and can’t stand when I hurt someone else’s feelings. I don’t wish you anything negative because that would be a waste of time. Instead, I hope that you and Vlad–even though he was starting to get on my nerves–have a successful long-term relationship. I won’t talk about you or anything like that anymore, but I will never forget those chats we had and all of that. Good luck on your book and your guitar. Wish you the best of luck in life.

–Broggy

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September 29, 2002

I didn’t say that I wished bad things for her– however, its an inevitable fact, that when you’re 16, i dont care how stinking in love you “THINK” you are.. breakups happen.. and she’s going to NEED that friend to run to.

Don’t revert back to being shy and quiet Joe, that’s not the way to go. Just be careful what you ask online, that’s all you need to do. I’m sorry that this has ended really badly, but it’s time that you just put things in the past and moved on. I know you were close to Beth, but you have many other friends online who love talking to you. Be happy hunny.

September 30, 2002

i agree with the note above me.

You shouldnt have to change who you are because of a situation like that….we all go through things like this where people will make us re-think about why we are this way but personally, i think you are a great person and friend and you shouldnt change for that reason Jocelyn

*scrowls* I didn’t wish it to happen i said that when and if it does happen then she will wish she had a friend she could turn to. I agree with misguided rose…no matter how in “love” she may think she is things do happen. Well i gotta run. Ta!