1/14/07
afrodiary is down, & heartsandstars is two weeks past it’s due date. i don’t want to put it up until it’s perfect. so here.
i drank too much– which means that i drank, at all. i’ve been in the kind of mood lately where alcohol shouldn’t even touch my lips. faster pussycat played well, but the bar was smoky and i get tired of conversations that inevitably end with ‘no thanks, you’re nice, but i don’t need your number’.
i want to matter to someone for reasons i respect.
not my eyes, not my lips,
not my tits, not my hips.
i do matter to someone for reasons i respect. to a few someones.
…
it occurred to me last night that some nights, there really isn’t anyone to call.
i want a phone number for when things are breaking down, not just for when they’re already broken.
…
i’m fine. it’s just this week, and it’s just tonight, and really, it’s just the alcohol.
i am so much more than this.
404-368-5793 … that’s a number to call when things are breaking down …
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hey, it’s leila. you should have my number. that’s presumptuous. you know. if you want someone to call and feel like picking me. message me or myspace or something, i’ll give it to you. i would really love to catch up with you/possibly stay in contact. i’m shitty at calling people though. i think you are too, so oh well. but srsly. if you need someone. anytime.
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You’ve already got my number. …at least, I think you still have it. And you can always call me.
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That’s really nice of you to say Morgan. It’s been too long. Come see my house sometime. I’m back in the country for a good while. Hope you use that number some time. Love, Matthew
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Hey, I was just telling my new g/f about you and how much impact you had on me so many years ago. 🙂 Thanks so much.
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